Apr 30, 2011 14:15
Most of my stuff are in my parents' shed. I have clothes, the books I need, my fridge and food. Plus: one of my chairs, two cabinets/closets and my bed. Three guitars. A lamp. A box filled with dvds. Shoes.
I can't move out today, though. I thought about it and thought about it, but I can't - I have to live somewhere (officially) which is not at my parents', or my income will be cancelled.
So the Juridisch Loket (free legal advice) told me to not pay the rent unless he could assure me he'd return my deposit, so I haven't, yet. He just sent me a text message asking for the rent. I'm - scared. And worried, and tired of being alone here. The boyfriend's rarely around, he spends most days cleaning his own room in preparation of me spending time there more often, and I can go to his house but that means I have to go past that man and I'm too depressed and scared to. I hate being scared, I hate that I can't do anything about this unless he actually touches me, I don't want him near me and I feel vulnerable, powerless, cornered.
He and his daughters have been doing things near my door all day now, I can hear them, and I flinch every time I hear a sliding door but it hasn't been my door so far, as far as I've been able to see. What are they doing? Making a lock to shut me in or out?
He actually made a snide comment about me leaving sooner so he could get a new tenant which just made me furious. I'm not even gone and he's preparing to victimise someone else already. I can't believe this, I wish he could go to jail already.
I need a tag for this.
dp,
moving,
rl