ashley barras
Overall I'm happy. Something inside me is telling me that I need to be alone. Not care what I've told my friends before how much I hated love. It's obviously something I've never understood...probably brain washed. They think it's easy. Start now by only having one drink. When that makes me just want to spite my choices. I've got to realize I need to distance myself from them because they don't understand. They don't want to stop drinking and I don't blame them. I've been that bad influence before. I still am. I see why Ashley Barras moved to Fargo. I get it. I get it! I've missed her so much over these years but I know we are best friends....because our souls are the same and I've never once made her feel bad because of her choices besides maybe telling her I missed her. She needed to be away from us. It's the only way. We are all going to become further and further away from each other physically because our choices are trying to heal us.