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So I haven't done very much today. Everyone else went to the football game [I know, I probably should have gone, seeing as how this is the first time IHS has done this well in like, forever] but I don't like football very much so I stayed home. I've been quite lazy today, not really doing much. Attempted to clean my room, but I haven't really gotten that far. All the sprite cans are no longer on my desk, though...
Danny was at a wedding most of the day, but he sent me a message a little while ago saying he'd be able to stop by. That makes me happy... I was upset when I didn't get to see him yesterday, but at least I'll get to see him tonight.
In the process of half way cleaning out random parts of my desk/under my bed, I came across some old notebooks and whatnot... Letters I'd written or received... Stuff from friends and assorted thoughts. I'm glad some things have changed since then, not so glad about others. I found a notebook that must have been from English last year, because it had those silly 10 minute write things in it. I found the one that We wrote about a moment in time we'd like to change....
10 min. write 2/15/05
If I could change one moment in my entire lifetime, I would change making the decision to go to Irvington's welcome back dance at the beginning of this year. That dance was the worst night of my life. I fought with someone the entire evening, I cried, I screamed, I yelled... He hurt me, he yelled at me, and he hurt himself. He grabbed my wrists and held me there, he made me watch him, put me though a sick, strange form of torture I will never forget. I wish I didn't attend that dance, I wish i stayed home. 3 hours of hell, a hell I was already all too familiar with. My friends watched in shock at all the events that took place that evening. He knew what he was doing, how he effected me, what control he had over me, and he did it anyway.
There was more to it than that, but I don't feel like typing the rest. I don't even really like thinking about that night or the rest of what i wrote that day.
I didn't even realize i still had some of this stuff.
Now my mom is bothering me, so I guess I'm done. Goodness she gets in my way sometimes...
Danny was at a wedding most of the day, but he sent me a message a little while ago saying he'd be able to stop by. That makes me happy... I was upset when I didn't get to see him yesterday, but at least I'll get to see him tonight.
In the process of half way cleaning out random parts of my desk/under my bed, I came across some old notebooks and whatnot... Letters I'd written or received... Stuff from friends and assorted thoughts. I'm glad some things have changed since then, not so glad about others. I found a notebook that must have been from English last year, because it had those silly 10 minute write things in it. I found the one that We wrote about a moment in time we'd like to change....
10 min. write 2/15/05
If I could change one moment in my entire lifetime, I would change making the decision to go to Irvington's welcome back dance at the beginning of this year. That dance was the worst night of my life. I fought with someone the entire evening, I cried, I screamed, I yelled... He hurt me, he yelled at me, and he hurt himself. He grabbed my wrists and held me there, he made me watch him, put me though a sick, strange form of torture I will never forget. I wish I didn't attend that dance, I wish i stayed home. 3 hours of hell, a hell I was already all too familiar with. My friends watched in shock at all the events that took place that evening. He knew what he was doing, how he effected me, what control he had over me, and he did it anyway.
There was more to it than that, but I don't feel like typing the rest. I don't even really like thinking about that night or the rest of what i wrote that day.
I didn't even realize i still had some of this stuff.
Now my mom is bothering me, so I guess I'm done. Goodness she gets in my way sometimes...