hmm.
Jess, I admire what you're doing. And, I miss you.
You'll probably eventually figure out who I am.
I just started a relationship, backed by a strong friendship. I love where I am. I'm just not used to not having the constant worries of: is he going to cheat on me? Does he really care? What if he hurts me? Is he lying to me? And...could I lose him at any second? I know these things are not an issue. But, it scares me that I'm not scared for these things, if that makes any sense. Knowing that we both care so much, and that we both know this is where we're supposed to be, is scary.
I also know I ruined friendships by starting this relationship, but it was time to help me, not them. I can say that, in the time you've known me, you've known me as a selfish person, and I hate that I have portrayed myself as such, because I never used to be this way.
I guess I just don't understand how the things I used to worry about arn't there, whether it's for the better, or worse...