Mmmmhmm..
Well!! What a fucking night.. me n Justin are no longer together..
I don't know whether to be sad that I lost the guy I love completly..orrr..to be happy that the guy I have wanted for a while now wants me...? I guess I do both...don't complain n move on..
We fought for such a retarded reason this time..and you know what?...I'm not in the wrong. So therefore..I should not..feel so betrayed..when I was the one who broke things off.. I felt like such a bitch..but..I wonder if he felt like an asshole...when he was bitchign me out.
I did have some fun though. Jill is a riot!!.. lmao. she's such a sweetie..so I hung out with Laura n Jill n Bree..it was good times. lol.. all pretty buzzed.. haha.. andddd..hmmm.. <3 there is other things that made the night better..
It was nice to feel completly wanted..and not by Justin. I had a good time..i see Joe there..and I go say Hi..and he gives me a hug..i was like...Uhh? hmmm. lol But then we started talking..and..we hung out..held hands...flirted.. lmao..it was good... It helped me not think of losing Justin. So..i finally wake Joe up n switch places with him...lol..and then Justin wants to talk to me before he goes home..cuz I told him I had a ride home n what not that I would come get my shit later...which I did..and yessss..Joe brought me home...And we talked...and you knwo what?! He LISTENED..and he talked back..and he didn't care when I said I hated guys...which is something new. lol.. But...haha funniest thing..i get up..to go talk to Justin before he leaves..and I go to sit back down..and Ally Porter is lying where I was..with Joe..and I was like..OH NO BITCH! I was like...can I have MY seat back...NOW?! I was sooo pissed...and as soon as I laid down..joe kinda woke up..realized I was laying there... and rubbed my back...then he went back to sleep..and so did I finally.. lmao..
Another story about him.. haha.. Justin comes to ask me if I will lay on the floor with him..and I was like...uhh maybe later?..Joe was sleeping on me..and I didn't want to wake him up.. so he kisses my cheek..and kinda sits there rubbing my arm.and I was like..Uhhh..I'm mad at you..and does it look like I want to move!?... So he's like...you'd rather sit here with HIM? and I was like..Yeahh.. I kinda would.. I'm not moving now am I?!...and Joe I guess was awake n listening... cuz he just squeeed my leg a lil..then we switched spots...and Justin's like..now that your moving..will you come lay with me?...and I didn't..I just sat there staring at him dumbfoundly.. Then I sat around til 7..when i finally laid down n got SOME sleep. lol..
So I am completly tierd..completly confused..Completly..in a *DaZe* I love it and I hate it at the same time. :-/
But Heyyyy--what can you do?!.. Everything ends up being a lost cause at one point or another...right?..
<3 Meg*
I don't know whether to be sad that I lost the guy I love completly..orrr..to be happy that the guy I have wanted for a while now wants me...? I guess I do both...don't complain n move on..
We fought for such a retarded reason this time..and you know what?...I'm not in the wrong. So therefore..I should not..feel so betrayed..when I was the one who broke things off.. I felt like such a bitch..but..I wonder if he felt like an asshole...when he was bitchign me out.
I did have some fun though. Jill is a riot!!.. lmao. she's such a sweetie..so I hung out with Laura n Jill n Bree..it was good times. lol.. all pretty buzzed.. haha.. andddd..hmmm.. <3 there is other things that made the night better..
It was nice to feel completly wanted..and not by Justin. I had a good time..i see Joe there..and I go say Hi..and he gives me a hug..i was like...Uhh? hmmm. lol But then we started talking..and..we hung out..held hands...flirted.. lmao..it was good... It helped me not think of losing Justin. So..i finally wake Joe up n switch places with him...lol..and then Justin wants to talk to me before he goes home..cuz I told him I had a ride home n what not that I would come get my shit later...which I did..and yessss..Joe brought me home...And we talked...and you knwo what?! He LISTENED..and he talked back..and he didn't care when I said I hated guys...which is something new. lol.. But...haha funniest thing..i get up..to go talk to Justin before he leaves..and I go to sit back down..and Ally Porter is lying where I was..with Joe..and I was like..OH NO BITCH! I was like...can I have MY seat back...NOW?! I was sooo pissed...and as soon as I laid down..joe kinda woke up..realized I was laying there... and rubbed my back...then he went back to sleep..and so did I finally.. lmao..
Another story about him.. haha.. Justin comes to ask me if I will lay on the floor with him..and I was like...uhh maybe later?..Joe was sleeping on me..and I didn't want to wake him up.. so he kisses my cheek..and kinda sits there rubbing my arm.and I was like..Uhhh..I'm mad at you..and does it look like I want to move!?... So he's like...you'd rather sit here with HIM? and I was like..Yeahh.. I kinda would.. I'm not moving now am I?!...and Joe I guess was awake n listening... cuz he just squeeed my leg a lil..then we switched spots...and Justin's like..now that your moving..will you come lay with me?...and I didn't..I just sat there staring at him dumbfoundly.. Then I sat around til 7..when i finally laid down n got SOME sleep. lol..
So I am completly tierd..completly confused..Completly..in a *DaZe* I love it and I hate it at the same time. :-/
But Heyyyy--what can you do?!.. Everything ends up being a lost cause at one point or another...right?..
<3 Meg*