lessons learned...
I really feel this leap of independence lately in my life. I realize that I am not living on my own yet, however I am paying rent where I am at. For once I don't feel this great need to have people in my life. I am content with what is here. I don't feel this overwhelming need to seek out. Although I never really made a lot of effort before to do so. I guess I just sort of put out this aura of need or want. I feel like the veil of co-dependence has finally lifted. It feels really good.
Things I have realized of late...
I am an extremely selfish person and I am okay with that for the moment. I think maybe it is what is needed to balance out past relationships of complete devotion. An equilibrium will come soon.
Online dating is for shit, and nothing quality comes out of it; however, if you look at it like a horrible train wreck, something that is totally horrid but you just can't turn away out of sheer curiosity... then it is quite amusing.
Sometimes relationships that you thought were supposed to go one way end up going another and that is okay. Just let it forge its own path.
Family is more than the people of which you were born from. Real family may not even be that at all. Sometimes the people who love you most and are the most unconditional are the people that you regard as true friends. Those people are real family.
I have a whole lot of love in my heart but not everyone is worth giving it to. So keep my mind and eyes open but guard my heart a little more carefully.
Time alone and at peace with oneself is something of great value and should never be forgotten.
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I leave on business for Tallahassee in the morning. I will be gone for a week. I love going there for work, it is always a fun week. :)
Things I have realized of late...
I am an extremely selfish person and I am okay with that for the moment. I think maybe it is what is needed to balance out past relationships of complete devotion. An equilibrium will come soon.
Online dating is for shit, and nothing quality comes out of it; however, if you look at it like a horrible train wreck, something that is totally horrid but you just can't turn away out of sheer curiosity... then it is quite amusing.
Sometimes relationships that you thought were supposed to go one way end up going another and that is okay. Just let it forge its own path.
Family is more than the people of which you were born from. Real family may not even be that at all. Sometimes the people who love you most and are the most unconditional are the people that you regard as true friends. Those people are real family.
I have a whole lot of love in my heart but not everyone is worth giving it to. So keep my mind and eyes open but guard my heart a little more carefully.
Time alone and at peace with oneself is something of great value and should never be forgotten.
~~~
I leave on business for Tallahassee in the morning. I will be gone for a week. I love going there for work, it is always a fun week. :)