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[bloodlustwitch]

Some thoughts on implications of the transbody. Disclaimer, this is not based in substantial personal experience of being trans and I hope does not offend anyone. I obviously don't speak on every experience out there; just merely musing/synthesizing from some experiences I've heard

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[anonymous]

Yo, I really appreciate this! Self image doesn't start and end with gender. It's a lot of things. And we have plenty of theory for the gender parts, but almost every trait we strive for in ourselves is based on some influence or the other, be it good or evil. On an academic level, we can theorize it all day long. On a personal level, I think people should not torment themselves with political explanations for the way they like to part their hair. I think the most liberated stance you can take is to be whatever feels hot and not try to be either with- or against- the system too intentionally.

I'm the kind of tranny who spends more time trying to figure out how to get along with my biology than changing it. Sometimes I give in and let myself think and act and try to look like a man for bit, but when it gets too comfortable, I panic and wear my tits out for a week and try to enjoy it. But that's because I don't think I'll ever be able to be the man I'd like to be, so I'd rather get to love the woman I am. My biggest nightmare is to give up what my mama gave me and then fall short of daddy.

However, for those who are lucky enough to pass to their satisfaction, or who would be happy with whatever today's doctors can do for them, I say all the power to you. Everyone tries to mould themselves into something or the other, and if what you're going for is within your reach, I say: live it up!

Good point on the clothing for self-image. I have actually found that I look a lot more like a guy in women's clothes than in men's because men's clothes too obviously don't fit me the way they would a man. In general, I've spent a lifetime gaining expertise on dressing for my body and my mother has always advised me to work with rather than against what I've got, and I find it has worked decently enough for me. Whenever I give in and try something that looks too good on the hanger to resist even though I know it's not quite for me, I end up getting depressed in the changing room. It's this kind of thing that makes me afraid to do drag - because with facial hair, I suddenly find myself alarmingly short.

This is all very specific to me as a person riddled with fear. Many people are brave enough to strive for their deepest desires and get as close as they can. Sometimes I find them inspiring, sometimes I know I'll never be them.

Thanks for sharing your thoughts :)
-Dani

[bloodlustwitch]

Hi Dani - thanks for your input. It's nice to hear some validating thoughts on the matter. I hope all's well with you.