Just thinking of life
I know I haven't been on here in so long that you probably wonder if I had gone for good. I used to be on here so much talking about my relationships and the usual stuff yes usually about Alexis and I but those days are way gone for now. Ironically I haven't been in a relationship for almost a year now and it's weird but it's just how I have been changing and whatnot. I do still love Alexis and I don't think I ever won't. But she is with someone now or has been for a good couple of years now and as long as she is healthy and happy and taken care of then there is nothing I can do. Ironically I have joined the church that her family is in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints (LDS) and am very proud to be apart of it and whatnot. I mean some people think that Mormons are crazy or a cult or whatnot but no we are Christian just like any of the other churches just more True. That isn't to say or bad mouth other Christians or say that they are wrong but well yeah you get my point. I guess I am just writing tonight because I am in a weird place right now because I am kinda seeing this one girl but I notice that I am having feelings and interested in someone else aswell or I think I am so it's like ah crap. I mean I don't think I have found that ah I can Marry this person person yet I mean not since Alexis. I mean I do at some times wish that she and I were still together and I do wonder what would have happened if we had stayed together. Would we have worked things out and had kids and stayed great together. I know Heavenly Father has put us all down on as part of his plan and everyone that we encounter and deal with no matter what is there for a reason. I just wish that I hadn't hurt her and stayed more strong about us as she was. I think that is why I have been single since breaking up with Brit. I admit I do still love her to and often think of her as well but life does roll on and whatever will be will be. I am not angry or scared that I won't get married to that right woman and all but it is annoying at times that it hasn't happened yet. I sometimes wonder what Alexis parents and all think now that I am in the church but I am sure they don't care and neither does Alexis I am sure. I wonder how Danielle is doing at times and hoping that she is being treated right and that she is happy with life. I know I know I am worrying about all these different women and you wonder why I am single right lol. Nah it's all good. Heavenly Father knows what is best and knows that I am where he wants me to be in that time that i am. Alright well I am off for now but talk later.