going thru my mind
Okay well it's been a while since I have written here and well I haven't had much to say but for some reason I do tonight. I have been online for awhile tonight and bumped into someone who I guess knew my ex theresa and is asking me about her hitting on some guy and did she fuck him and all this and well it just broke open wounds. I mean I love my girlfriend that I am with now Alexis and alwys will. She truely is my light in this world and is my insperation when I think of doing things. But honestly I loved Theresa when we were together (back when I was 20) and really thought she loved me at the time. She broke up with me saying that since her mom didn't want us together and us having no way of seeing eachother (which I thought was bullshit she could have) it just really hurt me. The only other person that has ever hurt me that bad was my ex Mell who is the mother of my daughter Angulique but that is another story. I felt after we broke up that I just couldn't and wouldn't find another person for fear of getting hurt then Alexis stepped into my world and well I was wrong. I just sometimes still feel hurt I guess that Theresa could have hurt me so badly and never loved me when she always said she did. That lying lil bitch. Well I guess you shouldn't trust most people anuyway. Well okay I gtg and I will talk to you later. Thanks for hearing me bitch.