feeling lost
Okay well this one is my fault. Everone who reads my journal and knows who I am knows that I was engaged to a really beautiful and sweet and special girl named Alexis and becasue I am stupid and didn't realize it at the time I broke up with her and regret it. I am hoping that this angel will take me back and hopefully take me back for good. Why did I do it well because I am stupid and I was scared of some things but that is no excuse. I should have followed what I tell people and let us work things out and get thru the shit but didn't do it. This is my fault that we are broken up and I hope I am lucky enough to get her back and when I do that is it I am treating her like the diamond she is and never letting her go. I know I said this before but I am done letting my fucked up fears get in the way. I want only Alexis and I want her to be the only one who has and takes care of my kids and being my wife and being the one I wake up to everymorning. I miss just the lil as well as the big things about her. The way her hair is and her voice and how she held me and the way she put up with me and her laugh and everyhting. Well I hope that God give me the best gift in the world and that is her. Well gtg and talk later.