.::Its been a while::.
Ok right now its quarter past 4 in the morning.. lol I am never gonna be able to get up tomorrow. Sorry I havnt updated in a while, I guess i've just been so busy, especially this week.. and my internet has been real fucked up lately :(, but I think its all better now, yay, lol. Wondering wtf im doing up this late? lol. Me and mirjola are the ONLY ONES ONLINE, where is everyone else? sleeping.. lol. I have spent the last untold minutes (I have no clue.. it could've been an hour, maybe two or it could have even been 45 minutes lol) making Mirjola's livejournal, personally i believe it to be a masterpiece ahah lol, I worked so hard, i like it better than my own, lol. She better use it! :P!! lol, or I will be sad.
We saw the western coast
I saw the hospital
Nursed the shoreline like a wound
Reports of lover's tryst
Were neither clear nor descript
We kept it safe and slow
The quiet things that no one ever knows
This week has been so busy.. I really didnt get to hang out with all the people that I wanted too... nameingly, Jt, Victoria, Julie, and you know, a few others.. From being depressing as all hell with Mirjola moving and our last couple times seeing her, to spending hours on end cleaning stephs basement which was one of the most tiring things I have ever done, mainly cuz most of the kids didnt even do anything most of the time... heh. i am so mad though... i worked so hard and I got 50$ from stephs mom.. i lost it all, every last fucking penny, i am so mad...
So keep the blood in your head
And keep your feet on the ground
If today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop out
Gave up my body and bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lower cases and capitals
Then this weekend i was supposed to go to "Hershey Park" with my family, which I wasnt looking all too foreward to, but then my parents canceled because my dad has to work, so instead ill be going to dan's cottage again, which will be really cool though its gonna be longer than last time.. and im still missing the people i didnt even get to see SINCE last time lol.. oh well.. So yea I guess im sleepin over Dan's friday night and then ill prolly be comming home from the cottage either monday or tuesday i cant really remember which.. im leaning towards tuesday though... it just rings a bell, lol.
I contemplate the day we wed
Your friends are boring me to death
Your veil is ruined in the rain
By then it's you I can do without
There's nothing new to talk about
And though our kids are blessed
Their parents let them shoulder all the blame
As usual with my life.. naught follows me but confusion and a lack of.. hmmm confidence.. I want to be doing things right now, i want to be able to just do what i want, but i cant.. im so confused and unsure.. I wish I was someone else, if I was then i wouldnt be so unsure because i would be different.. and screw confusion, with confidence i can just bust in there and then if worst comes to worst it will turn out things were different then i thought, I may be confused but that doesnt mean i cant take risks. But im not someone else.. im me
I lie for only you
And I lie well...
Hallelu...
We saw the western coast
I saw the hospital
Nursed the shoreline like a wound
Reports of lover's tryst
Were neither clear nor descript
We kept it safe and slow
The quiet things that no one ever knows
This week has been so busy.. I really didnt get to hang out with all the people that I wanted too... nameingly, Jt, Victoria, Julie, and you know, a few others.. From being depressing as all hell with Mirjola moving and our last couple times seeing her, to spending hours on end cleaning stephs basement which was one of the most tiring things I have ever done, mainly cuz most of the kids didnt even do anything most of the time... heh. i am so mad though... i worked so hard and I got 50$ from stephs mom.. i lost it all, every last fucking penny, i am so mad...
So keep the blood in your head
And keep your feet on the ground
If today's the day it gets tired
Today's the day we drop out
Gave up my body and bed
All for an empty hotel
Wasting words on lower cases and capitals
Then this weekend i was supposed to go to "Hershey Park" with my family, which I wasnt looking all too foreward to, but then my parents canceled because my dad has to work, so instead ill be going to dan's cottage again, which will be really cool though its gonna be longer than last time.. and im still missing the people i didnt even get to see SINCE last time lol.. oh well.. So yea I guess im sleepin over Dan's friday night and then ill prolly be comming home from the cottage either monday or tuesday i cant really remember which.. im leaning towards tuesday though... it just rings a bell, lol.
I contemplate the day we wed
Your friends are boring me to death
Your veil is ruined in the rain
By then it's you I can do without
There's nothing new to talk about
And though our kids are blessed
Their parents let them shoulder all the blame
As usual with my life.. naught follows me but confusion and a lack of.. hmmm confidence.. I want to be doing things right now, i want to be able to just do what i want, but i cant.. im so confused and unsure.. I wish I was someone else, if I was then i wouldnt be so unsure because i would be different.. and screw confusion, with confidence i can just bust in there and then if worst comes to worst it will turn out things were different then i thought, I may be confused but that doesnt mean i cant take risks. But im not someone else.. im me
I lie for only you
And I lie well...
Hallelu...