A year later..
for what ive gone threw is strange but i was happy..threw the days as i lived. u know i had nothing before just hated by many,and in one of my last post about my birthday, it had just passed and i wanted to just get it over with cause it wasnt going to be worth anything just another day in my life and a year later it's still the same..but this year i was really hoping for a better day on the 19th but it was just cold darken day with out the one i really wanted to be with ...and worst than my last but yea im doing ok now...and u know my love for her is pure and real like no other..but i feel as if im just standing still for the one girl that taught me how to love, care and fix problems in a matter of a second...is not there anymore. she is there but shes not being that same girl i met. shes still that loving girl that i met but, for what were going threw right now shes not being that girl that just wanted to fix things and make them better and it is hard when the one problem dealing with her and me she wont fix it. but i want her to fix this u know so we can have the problem solved and move on for something better..for her to do her part as well as ill do mine to make this great. she treated me so well why did shes stop? i dont know this year has been great up to the point of recently and im still here loving her and waiting for her all i want to do is make things better and feel that comfort, love, and care form her. i hope for something great. and live happily ever after and i hope something great will happen with us soon. i really do, im love with her and shes knows that. ...wonderfull....ok i cant write anymore... Celi im sorry for everything that ive done to cause u hurt and pain. and i hope u forgive me as i do for my self knowing that im becoming a better person i wanna make u happy but yet i still need ur help along the way, Celi I Love You. and i want to try something new. i pray for the best for us and i hope for something wonderful in the future...thank u thank u for everything