Metaphysical bullshit.
Wow, I really became a total shitheel for a moment there. Like 2-3 years.
Graduated now and have no idea what I want out of life... probably just going to sit here. I lost my romanticism somewhere between doing drugs and not having enough money and inclination to make doing drugs a lifestyle thing, but allowing my other interests to wither away. I'm the guy in the room full of fucked up people completely sober (or weeded, which is like same diff), ostensibly expecting some kind of conversation to come out of that.
What I'm doing right now is getting back to roots. Because I want to, this time. I'm trying to actually become someone, and in retrospect the person I was a couple years ago (funny enough, the person you can see if you scroll down like a page on this LJ) is actually someone I'm a lot more proud of, a better point to start off at than the person I was 2 weeks ago. Finally I'm not waiting for anything and it's a good feeling.
So this isn't a completely vague and pointless entry, I leave you with the image of me hunched in front of my computer like Lain. This is really where I feel most comfortable... I'm going to try to start again from here.
Graduated now and have no idea what I want out of life... probably just going to sit here. I lost my romanticism somewhere between doing drugs and not having enough money and inclination to make doing drugs a lifestyle thing, but allowing my other interests to wither away. I'm the guy in the room full of fucked up people completely sober (or weeded, which is like same diff), ostensibly expecting some kind of conversation to come out of that.
What I'm doing right now is getting back to roots. Because I want to, this time. I'm trying to actually become someone, and in retrospect the person I was a couple years ago (funny enough, the person you can see if you scroll down like a page on this LJ) is actually someone I'm a lot more proud of, a better point to start off at than the person I was 2 weeks ago. Finally I'm not waiting for anything and it's a good feeling.
So this isn't a completely vague and pointless entry, I leave you with the image of me hunched in front of my computer like Lain. This is really where I feel most comfortable... I'm going to try to start again from here.