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[bloodiromance]

So i guess im gonna get this all out. It feels really hopless, why love. Were too young to be "in love" then why the hell do we date? heart break sucks, i mean i can still think of all the stupid little things that make me love him. i miss them. who wouldnt? the way he holds me. his lips, is hair, face, body, his voice. i think that sucks the most the phone thing, u know when ur with someone u can call them or they call u every night, its like u expect it. i mean 8 months and now no more phone calls. i hate it the most when i wake up and the first person u think about is them, and u want to be with them or call them but u cant HES JUST NOT YOURS ANYMORE. it kills the whole day. i hate watching something or listening to something and just knowing that once you had heard or seen it with them and WHEN THEY MADE U LAUGH AT SOMETHING OR SMILE! and the name in ur profile its like a statment HES MINE or SHES MINE and i love her.... maybe i read to much into things but im a sucker for that. or u know when u have something they gave u or something u gave them its like...ur fine ur fine ..all happpy going along with the day then u see and break down. throw it at the wall like FUCK! why do i still have that?? and u know u cant get rid of it, cuz it would kill u. my ring :(. i hate NOT knowing what there doing every second its like... do they miss me ? are they thinking of me too? are they just as upset? your just saying GOD MAKE IT STOP... you know? i know this is really long and it may be stupid to u, but its all i can do right now. thanks for reading it.

i hate breaking up. i love you shane.