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I don't know whats going on anymore. I'm getting angrier, bitchier and generally more depressed by the day. One by one the people I love are dropping like flies as we end up arguing over whatever and I say something offensive... or do something offensive... or am accused of something bad... and I'm just sitting here inside my head going "Wha...@_@" And doing nothing to defend myself... or making a pretty crappy effort that makes things worse... And then the person leaves... or blocks me... or puts the phone down... and I'm still sitting there wondering what the hell just happened.
I'm pre-emptively blocking some people. Others I'm warning. But I need to avoid possible confrontation. It basically amounts to this... when people attack me verbally, or argue with me, or anything along those lines, I can't control how I respond. I fight back as viciously as I am capable of (which is quite a lot) and I have no control of it. I've tried. People having a go at me trying to get me to stop having a go at people are only going to end up adding themselves to the list of people I've pissed off. I need to try and sort this out without adding more people to the problem.
So, those of you who have been blocked, sorry, but it's only a precaution to stop me losing you. To those who haven't, you understand what's going on, and to those I've pissed off... I'm very very sorry, but I can't deal with it right now... I know trying to sort it out will only lead to more arguing and more hurt, so I'm trying to fight it at the source, and I hope in the mean time you can find it in your hearts to understand.
Xxx
I'm pre-emptively blocking some people. Others I'm warning. But I need to avoid possible confrontation. It basically amounts to this... when people attack me verbally, or argue with me, or anything along those lines, I can't control how I respond. I fight back as viciously as I am capable of (which is quite a lot) and I have no control of it. I've tried. People having a go at me trying to get me to stop having a go at people are only going to end up adding themselves to the list of people I've pissed off. I need to try and sort this out without adding more people to the problem.
So, those of you who have been blocked, sorry, but it's only a precaution to stop me losing you. To those who haven't, you understand what's going on, and to those I've pissed off... I'm very very sorry, but I can't deal with it right now... I know trying to sort it out will only lead to more arguing and more hurt, so I'm trying to fight it at the source, and I hope in the mean time you can find it in your hearts to understand.
Xxx