May 19, 2005 20:17
who am i supposed to stand next to and look cute?!
i don't even feel like looking halfway decent tomorrow because in the end, it's all pointless if i'm not trying to look good for anybody.
and i keep THINKING oh, you know, 20 years from now if i do something stupid at prom like not show up i'll regret it (ms moody)
but right now, i don't give a shit! nobody to have that ONE SLOW DANCE with and nobody to take 90 dollar pictures with. so i'm not gunna.
eeeverbody's saying how it'll still be great and i'll have loads of fun but to be honest wit u, i'm planning on it being a shitty night and if that's what it comes down to, so be it. at least i'm expecting the worst, right? right...
he has nooooo idea. usually when i say that, i mean it like "he has no idea what he's got comin his way" but this time, this bitch ass is putting me thru way more torture than i've ever been thru. he has no Fuckin idea.
Two days ago i was pissed off, but with the day coming closer and closer i'm just more and more defuckinpressed and pissed off at the same time!
I, Ali, went to bed at appx 9:30 last night.
THAT my friend... That is some crazy shit.