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i wish i could say things have settled down within me. it feels as if im someone else looking in at me, watching me, allowing me to go numb for awhile. i cannot let this go, ive invested too much. i am a very logical and emotional person. i put my heart into things probably a little too easily at times. my head questions everything to death. i feel sometimes without reason. when i care deeply, i cannot just shut it off. i wish i could. am i letting my life pass me by? maybe this is just one long fucked up dream. i want it to end.