Something isn't right

[bloodgoddess000]

(writen yesterday. this is not how i felt today, but how i felt yesterday)

a feeling of inadiquecy
something isn't right
a blackness surounding me
isn't holding me oh so tight

like the embrace of a lover
the horrid caress of a slap across the face
cloulding my vision
tying my tounge

fimilar thoughts
i'm sliding back into the place in my mind
the one that's comfterable
the one that makes everyone else cold

tears have streamed down my cheeks
i've cryed out intot he night
pleading to the moon
praying to the stars

something's wrong
a feeling of not nearly being good enough
disregard is swalling me
i fail at everything
so why the fuck should i try?

stairing into the monster's eyes
the monster that sleep inside
awake now
and tearing my insides apart

i'm distanced from everyone
chaged inside myself
i can't get close enough
close enought to make any difference

i'm a world apart
off amon all the planets
in a place were every thing i do is wrong -
just like here

'i'm not good enough'
the words running throug my mind
their feeling of trueism
racing though my veins

i'm just not feeling right
some little bridge has snaped in me
walls gone down
and walls gone up

the old walls
the ones that kept me insane
the ones that kept me away
the wall in which i hide my insquerties

temper flaring
my eyes flashing
something's wrong
i'm ust not right

my body shaking
chills crawling across my skin
my mind far from black
my heart far from light

it's just not right
inside me
everything's wrong
i don't want you to see

i want to fight
i want to scream and yell
take out everyting i want to do and say to the monster
on someone else

i feel so off
so not like myself
everything's wrong
and nothings right within me