gah
so yesh, sara is feeling very...icky-ish right now.
yet another long conversation with sam, in which we talked about a lot of shit. worked out being mad at eachother...but i'm past confused. i feel like shit. that's the simpilist way to put it. lately, that's all i've been feeling when i'm around sam. is just...wrong, bad, hurt, angery, shity, ect. and i'm not soposted to feel that from my bestfriend, but i do. and i can't help it. i tryed not to tonight, tried to be happy, but it didn't work. i started playing with my lighter (nervouse habit), and didn't stop for about 30mins...couldn't help it.
fuck. i don't want to be alone. but i can't take my car out, or i'll get my more truble. i would love for someone to be here with me, but the only person i know that i could call...i dont' want to be around...because he's the one who made me feel like this in the frist place...
god i hate life sometimes...and life. gods know i don't like that one...still want to be shot...any volintears? please?
yet another long conversation with sam, in which we talked about a lot of shit. worked out being mad at eachother...but i'm past confused. i feel like shit. that's the simpilist way to put it. lately, that's all i've been feeling when i'm around sam. is just...wrong, bad, hurt, angery, shity, ect. and i'm not soposted to feel that from my bestfriend, but i do. and i can't help it. i tryed not to tonight, tried to be happy, but it didn't work. i started playing with my lighter (nervouse habit), and didn't stop for about 30mins...couldn't help it.
fuck. i don't want to be alone. but i can't take my car out, or i'll get my more truble. i would love for someone to be here with me, but the only person i know that i could call...i dont' want to be around...because he's the one who made me feel like this in the frist place...
god i hate life sometimes...and life. gods know i don't like that one...still want to be shot...any volintears? please?