a little change could go a long way
hi again, dearest livejournal. so today.. SIGH . today was so dumb like omg wtf. it started out ok but i had to go home because i forgot to take something with me which was still laying in my room.
-"why don't you try that chicken sallad"
(i'm vegetarian for 7 years already but thanks anyway dad)
-"here have some pitta sallad"
me: "uh you sure this is vegetarian?"
-"yeah."
me: "great, it looks tasty..what's this ? it looks like a piece of meat"
me: "oh come on. turks don't eat meat, they don't like anything & are mean "
(wha)
me: "well eat that piece, and see if it's meat or not"
- *sighs* "ok it might be meat"
me: "so you think turks are mean because they don't eat meat?"
(bro they eat tons of meat)
can you hear the snare roll?? cause this is where -zing!- the obligated "RACIST RANT" begins. to summarise it a little, my mom & dad went like this:
-"i heard these turks always think they're getting judged by us, but they are like that, and i know lots of people who told bad stuff about them at my work, etc"
note: my father teaches at a school where there are lots of migrants & voted already for belgiums racist party. his problem with them? "they don't speak our language." (read: they speak in their own language sometimes during breaks, so he doesn't understands them. and my father clearly cares so much about other people's interests & opinions all of a sudden)
note 2: my mother's a kindergarten teacher. my sister who also studies for kindergarten teacher & doesn't care too much about antiracism, was even a little surprised in a negative way about the dumbest blatant racist shit half of her class would say during breaks.
these people in her class will be responsible for tomorrows education to kids who don't even dare to questions a growns up opinion. way to go belgium. right during election times the Vlaams Blok, our racist party, was branded "racist" by the court, and they had to change their name because of that. still they got 25% of the votes. election polls show that they'll get even more votes next time. i don't care anymore about discussing with these people too much about this, i'm so tired of this shit. i don't care if i'm arrogant because of that. i don't care about these people their background or because their "cousin got beaten up once by a black man" and these kind of dumb stories or whatever that got them into moronic views on our multicultural society & politics in general.
we are one of the richest countries of the whole world, and half of our taxes goes to education & all it got us is a big load of people turning dumb, hopelessly ignorant & selfish.
i love my parents, because they are my parents and they love me too. and i don't want to badmouth them here, that's not my intention. but what can i say or contribute to these people their lifes? everything i like is what they ignore usually, or even hate. i just sit there & give some remarks i don't even care about just to keep in touch with them. and when they say stuff that offends me i might say something back but not get into it too much to avoid another pointless fight. how sad is that? and my brother & me aren't strangers to each other, cause i know how he is like, and he knows how i am and the result of that is we don't like each other a lot. my concept of "home" has always been depressing, and growing up didn't change it too much. expect, i finally took of which was something i should have done way way earlier. well, time to go back to my place. i will visit this house less & less with time. i wanna move out belgium eventually, not just because people are bitter & selfish here but just because i feel like being in a total other place and i want to meet people who don't speak my language. i wish everybody spoke goddamn turkish & japanese here, or whatever weird language i don't understand. i don't know where i'll end up living, but i'm sure it will be GNARLY.
-"why don't you try that chicken sallad"
(i'm vegetarian for 7 years already but thanks anyway dad)
-"here have some pitta sallad"
me: "uh you sure this is vegetarian?"
-"yeah."
me: "great, it looks tasty..what's this ? it looks like a piece of meat"
me: "oh come on. turks don't eat meat, they don't like anything & are mean "
(wha)
me: "well eat that piece, and see if it's meat or not"
- *sighs* "ok it might be meat"
me: "so you think turks are mean because they don't eat meat?"
(bro they eat tons of meat)
can you hear the snare roll?? cause this is where -zing!- the obligated "RACIST RANT" begins. to summarise it a little, my mom & dad went like this:
-"i heard these turks always think they're getting judged by us, but they are like that, and i know lots of people who told bad stuff about them at my work, etc"
note: my father teaches at a school where there are lots of migrants & voted already for belgiums racist party. his problem with them? "they don't speak our language." (read: they speak in their own language sometimes during breaks, so he doesn't understands them. and my father clearly cares so much about other people's interests & opinions all of a sudden)
note 2: my mother's a kindergarten teacher. my sister who also studies for kindergarten teacher & doesn't care too much about antiracism, was even a little surprised in a negative way about the dumbest blatant racist shit half of her class would say during breaks.
these people in her class will be responsible for tomorrows education to kids who don't even dare to questions a growns up opinion. way to go belgium. right during election times the Vlaams Blok, our racist party, was branded "racist" by the court, and they had to change their name because of that. still they got 25% of the votes. election polls show that they'll get even more votes next time. i don't care anymore about discussing with these people too much about this, i'm so tired of this shit. i don't care if i'm arrogant because of that. i don't care about these people their background or because their "cousin got beaten up once by a black man" and these kind of dumb stories or whatever that got them into moronic views on our multicultural society & politics in general.
we are one of the richest countries of the whole world, and half of our taxes goes to education & all it got us is a big load of people turning dumb, hopelessly ignorant & selfish.
i love my parents, because they are my parents and they love me too. and i don't want to badmouth them here, that's not my intention. but what can i say or contribute to these people their lifes? everything i like is what they ignore usually, or even hate. i just sit there & give some remarks i don't even care about just to keep in touch with them. and when they say stuff that offends me i might say something back but not get into it too much to avoid another pointless fight. how sad is that? and my brother & me aren't strangers to each other, cause i know how he is like, and he knows how i am and the result of that is we don't like each other a lot. my concept of "home" has always been depressing, and growing up didn't change it too much. expect, i finally took of which was something i should have done way way earlier. well, time to go back to my place. i will visit this house less & less with time. i wanna move out belgium eventually, not just because people are bitter & selfish here but just because i feel like being in a total other place and i want to meet people who don't speak my language. i wish everybody spoke goddamn turkish & japanese here, or whatever weird language i don't understand. i don't know where i'll end up living, but i'm sure it will be GNARLY.