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ok, yeterday
went to docs, got more meds
went into college, got my key skills stuff sorted, got my paperwork signed and allowed to go
my lesson was meant to start at 1, i was home by then
the test we did wednesday? i got 100%, he's never had a student get that before
then i went back to grandparents, grabbed my stuff and hopped on a train
got to Coventry by half three
there were cuddles and goodness
being back here takes the weight off my mind that's constantly there in london
i know me and jenn are just friends, but i like it that way
then we headed out to the cross to meet Alex and watch Wrapped in Plastic play
and they were great
unfortunatly, i forgot that i'm no longer allowed to drink whilst on these meds and so had a major blip
crying and jealousy of scars
major jealousy
and there was a broken window behind me
but they held me. and kept me safe
and i cheered up towards the end
and Andy came up and sterted talking to me
and we started kissing, and he wants to know what i'm doing tonight....
squeeeee
date
although i'm scared and unsure
then me and alex and jenn came home
and alex and jenn did stuff
i swear nothing hurts worse than watching two people you love have sex and knowing you can never have that with them again
can't join in
haven't got that with anybody
but i got cuddles
and that was good
cuddles are what i need most at the moment
woke up at quater to 8, we'd set the alarm for 8 because alex wanted to catch the 8.30 bus home
i got up when the alarm went off and went down to make tea and toast
they're still asleep
it's nine o'clock
i know i shouldn't have bothered
but i want to take care of them
just a tiny part of me wants to patch things up and go back to the way there were
even though i know that wont work
sigh
so i'm sitting at the end of the bed, and they're finally waking up
life's great, isn't it?
went to docs, got more meds
went into college, got my key skills stuff sorted, got my paperwork signed and allowed to go
my lesson was meant to start at 1, i was home by then
the test we did wednesday? i got 100%, he's never had a student get that before
then i went back to grandparents, grabbed my stuff and hopped on a train
got to Coventry by half three
there were cuddles and goodness
being back here takes the weight off my mind that's constantly there in london
i know me and jenn are just friends, but i like it that way
then we headed out to the cross to meet Alex and watch Wrapped in Plastic play
and they were great
unfortunatly, i forgot that i'm no longer allowed to drink whilst on these meds and so had a major blip
crying and jealousy of scars
major jealousy
and there was a broken window behind me
but they held me. and kept me safe
and i cheered up towards the end
and Andy came up and sterted talking to me
and we started kissing, and he wants to know what i'm doing tonight....
squeeeee
date
although i'm scared and unsure
then me and alex and jenn came home
and alex and jenn did stuff
i swear nothing hurts worse than watching two people you love have sex and knowing you can never have that with them again
can't join in
haven't got that with anybody
but i got cuddles
and that was good
cuddles are what i need most at the moment
woke up at quater to 8, we'd set the alarm for 8 because alex wanted to catch the 8.30 bus home
i got up when the alarm went off and went down to make tea and toast
they're still asleep
it's nine o'clock
i know i shouldn't have bothered
but i want to take care of them
just a tiny part of me wants to patch things up and go back to the way there were
even though i know that wont work
sigh
so i'm sitting at the end of the bed, and they're finally waking up
life's great, isn't it?