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[bloodbathdreams]

Ok so I have been pretty busy as of late ... planning vacation and what not .. (I hate it when plans change) SO it looks like we will be going on vacation mid July ish so we shall see how that one goes .. Ben and I have come up on our 3rd year I swear it seems way longer than that hehe but anyhow we have been doing really good and he got to go into the studio this weekend so he is a happy boy ... seems like his plan for his demo is coming along pretty well I wish the best for him when it comes to the music industry cause we all know how they like to chew you up and spit you out but I know what talent he has and not just cause he is my boyfriend trust me Im a bitch if it sucked I would tell him lol but it is actually pretty bad ass I must say ... ok enough of Ben and more of me .. I am scolding myself for not updating on this journal more often its nice to have things to look back on I guess ... alright alright so I have been putting off the bad news ... well bad news for me anyhow seems like I am going to have to goto the doctor soon to get a few biopsies done to make sure I dont have melanoma cancer ... so I have been stressing about it the last couple of days and I am about to do hella research on it cause I honestly dont know it from head to toe and have never known anyone that got it but I am just hoping that I do not have it because I will have to have 3 different area biopsies so those are three chances that I could have it and even one chance is one to many

I wanna go ni ni