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Well i thought i may as well update.... got a few things on my mind as usual so i thought i would get them out here.
Just ready your entry manda.... i couldnt reply to you cause im not on your friends list * Insert Sad Face *
So i'll reply here in teh hope you read it ^_^
Thought you were a tad harsh.... but dont blame you for anything you have said.
Gl with everything in your life now, maybe we can have a chat sometime.... well...if you dont hate me :S (And believe it or not, i dont hate you :O! )
Well whilst things are coming out, thought i would write it down.
What happened with Sam and Nathan still hurts, It's the third time its happened to me...and its not any easier the third time to get over.
I know alot of people's reactions to all of this crap have just been " oh.... you did it to her with kerry... so its not really any different " which tbh... is a pile of shit.
I suffered so much fucking shit over what happened with kerry.... ive lost so many friends due to it.
It being done to me again, doesnt make it the same... nor does it make it just.... or even understandable.
When its a friend that it happens with....especially such close friend as nathan was to me.... it fucking kills.
I can honestly say i dont know if i will get over what happened.... im not one that can really get over anything.
Im the type of person that will have something stuck in my head for the rest of my life.
I'll be honest again, it does still hurt me alot.
I was in bedford the other day... came back today.... when i was at the train station to go there... all that was running through my mind was when sam told me about it.... when i got to bedford... all i could remember was how i was feeling... and it made me feel the same again.
Then... when we got back to sam's mum's house... i didnt actually want to go to bed at all... when i saw the bed... constant images were going through my head.
I was going to go down the quasar to try and forget about it... but the whole thing about i dont really know who is still talking to me and who isnt kinda put me off.
I dont think i am ready to go to bedford yet...
I dont mean just Quasar.....
I mean anywhere in general in bedford.
I really wanted to go to quasar actually..... see kerry... chris abri...matt...seany (though i dont know if you are talking to me).
Been about 3 months since i saw anyone from quasar actually :s
Awh well i have rambled on quite a bit.
I should prolly stop all this emo shite now before you think thats the way i am these days.
(Because im not.)
As i said, was in bedfordio the other day.... helped sam pick out a new computer for her dads house... found quite a decent one actually :D
And funnily enough... Sam bought WoW!! HAHAHAHAHA SOMEONE GOT ADDICTED :P
Started talking to a lass named Amy Dowers again recently.... she is a girl i used to know quite well.... Nik's best friend.
Last time we talked was after nik and i split up.
Didnt end on good terms XD
But yeah we started chatting again.... we are both so different from how we used to be now :O
It's awsome, she is so cool to talk to.
Might even have to meet up with her sometime XD
anyway, ive rambled on enough now... got things to thinks about so Adios!
MWAH xx
Just ready your entry manda.... i couldnt reply to you cause im not on your friends list * Insert Sad Face *
So i'll reply here in teh hope you read it ^_^
Thought you were a tad harsh.... but dont blame you for anything you have said.
Gl with everything in your life now, maybe we can have a chat sometime.... well...if you dont hate me :S (And believe it or not, i dont hate you :O! )
Well whilst things are coming out, thought i would write it down.
What happened with Sam and Nathan still hurts, It's the third time its happened to me...and its not any easier the third time to get over.
I know alot of people's reactions to all of this crap have just been " oh.... you did it to her with kerry... so its not really any different " which tbh... is a pile of shit.
I suffered so much fucking shit over what happened with kerry.... ive lost so many friends due to it.
It being done to me again, doesnt make it the same... nor does it make it just.... or even understandable.
When its a friend that it happens with....especially such close friend as nathan was to me.... it fucking kills.
I can honestly say i dont know if i will get over what happened.... im not one that can really get over anything.
Im the type of person that will have something stuck in my head for the rest of my life.
I'll be honest again, it does still hurt me alot.
I was in bedford the other day... came back today.... when i was at the train station to go there... all that was running through my mind was when sam told me about it.... when i got to bedford... all i could remember was how i was feeling... and it made me feel the same again.
Then... when we got back to sam's mum's house... i didnt actually want to go to bed at all... when i saw the bed... constant images were going through my head.
I was going to go down the quasar to try and forget about it... but the whole thing about i dont really know who is still talking to me and who isnt kinda put me off.
I dont think i am ready to go to bedford yet...
I dont mean just Quasar.....
I mean anywhere in general in bedford.
I really wanted to go to quasar actually..... see kerry... chris abri...matt...seany (though i dont know if you are talking to me).
Been about 3 months since i saw anyone from quasar actually :s
Awh well i have rambled on quite a bit.
I should prolly stop all this emo shite now before you think thats the way i am these days.
(Because im not.)
As i said, was in bedfordio the other day.... helped sam pick out a new computer for her dads house... found quite a decent one actually :D
And funnily enough... Sam bought WoW!! HAHAHAHAHA SOMEONE GOT ADDICTED :P
Started talking to a lass named Amy Dowers again recently.... she is a girl i used to know quite well.... Nik's best friend.
Last time we talked was after nik and i split up.
Didnt end on good terms XD
But yeah we started chatting again.... we are both so different from how we used to be now :O
It's awsome, she is so cool to talk to.
Might even have to meet up with her sometime XD
anyway, ive rambled on enough now... got things to thinks about so Adios!
MWAH xx