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mm This week was so good probably the best week ever dare I say. Jules got her iPod back welcome back tot he apple bretheren. Im really confident with how I handle myself during all the tests I thought I thought very clear-headed and im not fearing college that much anymore.
On top of everything I had a track meet yesterday and it was probably the best time I've had in a long time. The meet started at 4 and ended at 12 so we got home pretty late but it's not even how long it was'nt justing sitting on the floor of a gym for 9 hours but it's who I was there with. I was dreading it at first but seriously I could'nt have spent a friday night any better but with these guys that can actually say they "Love you" and have them mean it and it not be something to test your sexuality it's just stupid. It's like if you feel that way about someone it's ok but you can't ever tell them and I don't feel that way with these guys I dont feel like I have to put up my guard and watch what I say they're like brothers now. I just wanna say if I've been a dick and it seems like im avoiding anyone it's been alot of track practice and studying so don't be mad.
I thought I had to change myself to be with someone but I realized that I hate the old me and can't ever go back to him it's the present I live in now and I dont ever think I can be that guy anymore but im still the same person just a little more reserved and grown-up.
On top of everything I had a track meet yesterday and it was probably the best time I've had in a long time. The meet started at 4 and ended at 12 so we got home pretty late but it's not even how long it was'nt justing sitting on the floor of a gym for 9 hours but it's who I was there with. I was dreading it at first but seriously I could'nt have spent a friday night any better but with these guys that can actually say they "Love you" and have them mean it and it not be something to test your sexuality it's just stupid. It's like if you feel that way about someone it's ok but you can't ever tell them and I don't feel that way with these guys I dont feel like I have to put up my guard and watch what I say they're like brothers now. I just wanna say if I've been a dick and it seems like im avoiding anyone it's been alot of track practice and studying so don't be mad.
I thought I had to change myself to be with someone but I realized that I hate the old me and can't ever go back to him it's the present I live in now and I dont ever think I can be that guy anymore but im still the same person just a little more reserved and grown-up.