"Yours is the first face that I saw
Let’s start this blog off with good news. Since it’s hurricane season during my birthday my mom opted to fly a friend an I to Australia (she knows how much I want to go) to stay at some sweet hotel for a week. I’m so stoked are you serious I mean c’mon it’s fucking Australia and everything is paid for.
In other news I’ve been sick for a week and it’s starting to really stress me out. Cas and Josh are having a party at their house tonight, I’m bringing back my pong prowess.
Went to the mall with Kara on Tuesday and she convinced me to actually buy stuff from Hollister and American Eagle so now I’m $300 poorer and a lot of clothes richer. I must admit though that stuff looks good with me in it, Go figure.
I get to see Perla in 2 weeks and I can’t wait. Seriously though it’s going to be neat.
ILYPMTIETP
Alright for the recap, pretty much been hanging out with my boys from school. Everyone's back and it's seriously like the old days when I was younger and content. It's funny to think that that same friends you used to share so much with don't even say "Hey" when their back, it's almost as if your strangers again. Friendships work out sporadically like that sometimes but it never ceases to amaze me of how nomadic people are.
In other news my marathon is that much closer, I'm so excited it's crazy.
I'm pretty much in love with Perla.
It's almost 80 degree's and raining which means going for a run of course.
New Shai Hulud cd is insane.
I forgive you.
I'm getting Ay Carumba today :)
Your the Bee's Knee's Sweet P.
I can't wait to see your face and hold your hand.
I feel so happy, I'm over all the heartache and finally happy.. It's all because of you Pearl ILY.
Lyrics always said it better.
1. "Oh, woah.
MY HEART ISN'T BROKEN
AND I'M NOT DEAD"
2. "Through a million walls
With ten thousand calls
I'll find a way to you somehow"
"Baby don't worry cause now I got your back. And every time you feel like crying,
I'm gonna try and make you laugh. And if I can't, if it just hurts too bad,
then we will wait for it to pass and I will keep you company
through those days so long and black."
Sun's vs. Spurs:
Phoenix I love you, you have insane potential, so much faith in you.
San Antonio your Champions what else can we say?
BRING FIRE TO GAME 3 SUN'S!!!
As of a few minutes ago my night is stinging a little less. I'm glad I even get to hear her voice :)
Open your mind for it is a seed waiting to be nurtured with ideas.
Move your fingers they are but an annexation of that beautiful mind to create with what it imagines.
Open your eyes as to not see devastation and the usurped acts of others but to see hope for the future.
Live not in the past, which governs your life but in the present that leads it.
See the future not as inconvenience but as a continuation of your life.
You are not waiting to be dead, you are alive, you are powerful, and you are a sculptor of the future.
Look not at the past for answers but live in this powerful now.
Change can occur don’t let them take your ingenuity, don’t let them take your limitless mind,
stand up and fight for your future it belongs to you not to them.
"Tonight I can fight" By Chris
Pablo Neruda you inspired all these words.
I've been in this bed since morning
more alert but never learning
that everytime I breakdown
I should never let you see.
Remember when I fell down
you said never put your head down
that's been in every thought that I can ever dream
Since then I keep my eyes up
even after all the fuck ups
I won't let her see me cry
not till the day I die
when she reads me in her diary
remembers that one sad memory
I'll smile again tonight
just to lift her chin back up
They all say look up
never count your bad luck
but they can't feel these eyes that look back in the mirror
every time these fingers fall down they scream of all the let downs
In every single bar I'll look for her eyes
at the bottom of that glass or even in my lies
They all say it's half full
but how can I be thankful?
“I Wonder if I’ll ever get it right” By Chris
Last night everything seemed a bit colder.
Last night my thoughts were a little lonelier.
Every time I think I’m doing so well my memories prove me wrong.
It’s as if your smile is burned into every happy memory I can recall.
That same smile used to humble my haughty demeanor now it only provokes it.
These thoughts sting and exalt the ignominy I feel for letting you fall.
I realize now that I am just as at fault for the presumption that you’d adjourn your life for me.
I was wrong now these memories sting me in spite.
I wonder if I’ll ever get it right.
"Am I more harm then good" By Chris Must Die
Is all I am a Smoking Gun?
Destined to be the aftershock of a tragedy.
Is all I am a Grain of Sand in this World?
To forever more esteem the achievements of the ones who've surpassed me.
Are my emotions frivolous to populace around me?
Am I triviality at it's paramount.
Am I more harm then good?
I wonder if I'll win this fight?
Yeah this isn't me being Emo or about me or anything just felt inspired by an idea. This is on of a set of poems that I've suddenly been inspired to write so be on the lookout.
In other news I’ve been sick for a week and it’s starting to really stress me out. Cas and Josh are having a party at their house tonight, I’m bringing back my pong prowess.
Went to the mall with Kara on Tuesday and she convinced me to actually buy stuff from Hollister and American Eagle so now I’m $300 poorer and a lot of clothes richer. I must admit though that stuff looks good with me in it, Go figure.
I get to see Perla in 2 weeks and I can’t wait. Seriously though it’s going to be neat.
ILYPMTIETP
Alright for the recap, pretty much been hanging out with my boys from school. Everyone's back and it's seriously like the old days when I was younger and content. It's funny to think that that same friends you used to share so much with don't even say "Hey" when their back, it's almost as if your strangers again. Friendships work out sporadically like that sometimes but it never ceases to amaze me of how nomadic people are.
In other news my marathon is that much closer, I'm so excited it's crazy.
I'm pretty much in love with Perla.
It's almost 80 degree's and raining which means going for a run of course.
New Shai Hulud cd is insane.
I forgive you.
I'm getting Ay Carumba today :)
Your the Bee's Knee's Sweet P.
I can't wait to see your face and hold your hand.
I feel so happy, I'm over all the heartache and finally happy.. It's all because of you Pearl ILY.
Lyrics always said it better.
1. "Oh, woah.
MY HEART ISN'T BROKEN
AND I'M NOT DEAD"
2. "Through a million walls
With ten thousand calls
I'll find a way to you somehow"
"Baby don't worry cause now I got your back. And every time you feel like crying,
I'm gonna try and make you laugh. And if I can't, if it just hurts too bad,
then we will wait for it to pass and I will keep you company
through those days so long and black."
Sun's vs. Spurs:
Phoenix I love you, you have insane potential, so much faith in you.
San Antonio your Champions what else can we say?
BRING FIRE TO GAME 3 SUN'S!!!
As of a few minutes ago my night is stinging a little less. I'm glad I even get to hear her voice :)
Open your mind for it is a seed waiting to be nurtured with ideas.
Move your fingers they are but an annexation of that beautiful mind to create with what it imagines.
Open your eyes as to not see devastation and the usurped acts of others but to see hope for the future.
Live not in the past, which governs your life but in the present that leads it.
See the future not as inconvenience but as a continuation of your life.
You are not waiting to be dead, you are alive, you are powerful, and you are a sculptor of the future.
Look not at the past for answers but live in this powerful now.
Change can occur don’t let them take your ingenuity, don’t let them take your limitless mind,
stand up and fight for your future it belongs to you not to them.
"Tonight I can fight" By Chris
Pablo Neruda you inspired all these words.
I've been in this bed since morning
more alert but never learning
that everytime I breakdown
I should never let you see.
Remember when I fell down
you said never put your head down
that's been in every thought that I can ever dream
Since then I keep my eyes up
even after all the fuck ups
I won't let her see me cry
not till the day I die
when she reads me in her diary
remembers that one sad memory
I'll smile again tonight
just to lift her chin back up
They all say look up
never count your bad luck
but they can't feel these eyes that look back in the mirror
every time these fingers fall down they scream of all the let downs
In every single bar I'll look for her eyes
at the bottom of that glass or even in my lies
They all say it's half full
but how can I be thankful?
“I Wonder if I’ll ever get it right” By Chris
Last night everything seemed a bit colder.
Last night my thoughts were a little lonelier.
Every time I think I’m doing so well my memories prove me wrong.
It’s as if your smile is burned into every happy memory I can recall.
That same smile used to humble my haughty demeanor now it only provokes it.
These thoughts sting and exalt the ignominy I feel for letting you fall.
I realize now that I am just as at fault for the presumption that you’d adjourn your life for me.
I was wrong now these memories sting me in spite.
I wonder if I’ll ever get it right.
"Am I more harm then good" By Chris Must Die
Is all I am a Smoking Gun?
Destined to be the aftershock of a tragedy.
Is all I am a Grain of Sand in this World?
To forever more esteem the achievements of the ones who've surpassed me.
Are my emotions frivolous to populace around me?
Am I triviality at it's paramount.
Am I more harm then good?
I wonder if I'll win this fight?
Yeah this isn't me being Emo or about me or anything just felt inspired by an idea. This is on of a set of poems that I've suddenly been inspired to write so be on the lookout.