here's your fucking update
Everytime someone reads my livejournal they are like, "hey you finally updated!" so here is your fucking update. Do what you want with it. I just dont care anymore. I've spent at least a week worrying about leaving and losing touch with people. I really don't know who is a friend and who isn't anymore. Yea sure there are the basics but even they can't be there everytime. Besides I work and when I dont apparently they have their free time in there. This alone time that they share is apparently leaving me without anyone good enough to go see any movies with. But thats only another lil problem. Reel Big Fish said it best "I don't fucking care, I don't fucking care, I don't fucking care anymore" Its just Im done trying so damn hard to get to hang out with people who hardly wanna see me. Im tired of coming home after work tired and angry only to get online and see shit with Elyse and Kelsey while Elyse tries to involve me in it. I also just found out that Im working up until the day I leave, so no going away parties for me. I leave silently into the night...and gone I will be. I will no longer be there to talk to, be there to call and hang out with. I will no longer see the people who I have liked and hated for the past 4 years of my life. The people that I have called my friends are no longer going to be in my life. more later, im done writing.