My so-called knife.
You are Roxy.
Which Misfit are you? (from the Jem Cartoon series)
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I totally rigged that quiz so I'd get Roxy. Haha. She's my fuckin' favourite Misfit! \m/
Damn you soymilk! You made my stomach hurt from feeling too fullllll.
Nothing much going on tonight. I'm not one of those people who needs to go out every single night to be cool or whatever. Sat in with Ryan and Nate and ordered Chinese food. Now I feel fatter and full of msg's but oh so satisfied. It was mostly just a night of watching Simpsons, Family Guy, South Park, all that good stuff.
I kind of wish I was/could go out right now, because at the risk of sounding overtly full of myself, I look damn hot right now. I have a habit of doing my makeup in the middle of the night. I don't know why. Maybe because I'm a nightowl to boot. I was thinking about the fetish modelling stuff again tonight. It's pushing me to lose weight even more than I already want to. I've had offers to do some shoots but I didn't feel comfortable enough with my body to start at the time. But once I get in the swing of this lifestyle change, I'll start talking to some photographers again and get the ball rolling.
I bought this book today called "Total Body Guide" that'll help me with some eating habits and at-home exercises before I start going to the gym. It's got lots of great little tips and stuff, even for your face, skin and hair.
When I go to the orthodontist on Wednesday I'm going to see what the gym's rates are. It would be cool if they had a student discount or something. Anyways, I'll hopefully start that soon, and be able to start doing a bit of fetish modelling here and there come the new year. I know a couple of really good photographers who were interested in shooting me, and one of them is actually close enough by me to facilitate the possibility. The other, not so close. But who knows. Anyways, I've always wanted to do some alternative modelling, it's a huge interest of mine, and I just really feel the need to pursue it, so it's pushing me to achieve my goals moreso than if I didn't want to model. A lot of people have told me that I have a really interesting face and that I have gorgeous hair and "if you lost a bit of weight, you could model" etc. Well I'm going to, dammit. I'm determined. I want to be the chick in those crazy PVC catsuits you see on the clothing tags, and who's got those wild hair extensions, and who just gets to wear lots of wacky, sexy clothes for alternative companies. I'm really interested in doing fetish lingerie, that's why I'm so hell bent on losing the weight for that particular reason.
I just get angry at myself sometimes because I've turned down SO many interesting possibilities with things like that, because I hate my body too much, hence I feel like I'm not good enough to take people up on their offers.
I don't HATE hate my body, it just really needs a HUGE tuneup.
And it's going to fucking happen, because I'm determined as hell this time.
Anyways, sorry, just thinking out loud.
I don't work again until Wednesday, so that's nice. I guess. My paycheque today sucked but meh. What can ya do. At least I get paid every week, and my cheque next week should be nice and fat. Well, I would hardly classify it as 'fat', but it'll still be bigger than my regular pay.
Enough!
Because I <3 Wendi!
1. what do you hope to accomplish by the end of the year?
I hope to be in my own apartment with Ryan, and have lost 1o pounds.
2. what was your favorite book as a child?
Charlotte's Web, was one of them. I also adored books by Robert Munsch.
3. what's your first memory?
I'm not sure, because I get my early memories confused with pictures I have of me as a kid.
4. name a song you can listen to over and over without getting sick of.
Jeff Buckley - Lover, you should have come over.
5. describe the current contents of your stomach.
Chinese food and chocolate soy milk.
6. describe yourself as you were when you were 8 years old.
I was a pretty introverted kid. Not shy, but just very observational. I was a great little artist, and I loved music and dancing. I spent a lot of time on my own in my room, by choice, just drawing or recording my voice on tape, or singing along to r&b groups like SWV and En Vogue. I was also very self conscious back then.
7. if you were going to the zoo, which animal would you want to see first?
The Siberian tigers!!!
8. what's in your purse? or wallet?
Makeup, pens, bank card, license, bank book, a Supervixens keychain, a toothbrush, elastics, bobbypins, tweezers, pictures of me and Ryan from a photobooth, business cards, phone numbers, etc.
9. what item or activity in your life would it pain you the most to give up?
Item: Hmmm...... My acoustic guitar or all of my photographs.
Activity: Playing guitar... or writing poetry.
10. in the movie of your life, who would play you?
Liv Tyler or Thora Birch.
11. what's the best thing that has happened to you this week? and the worst?
Best: Being called "Toots" at work
Worst: Humidity. :/
Pet Peeve of the Day: People who have the nerve to call others 'alcoholics' when every single night they drink at a different bar, and that's all their life is about, (I bet you're really going somewhere in life!) when in turn, the 'alcoholic' hardly even drinks anymore because there is no need anymore. Stress and anger and depression is a cause of binge drinking. When it's gone, voila! No more boozing for the 'alcoholic'.
You fucking loser.