help.
I wish I knew people that actually liked me for who I am.
Or just liked me.
Because I'm annoying.
I'm paranoid. And boring. And afraid. And jittery.
And I keep becoming more and more alone.
And I don't know what to do.
I'll more than likely start taking the accutane very soon.
And someone said I should have people around that know how I act so as to point out any change in my behavior that might be worrying.
But I don't know anyone now.
It'll only be my mom.
I feel like I could die from this loneliness.
One could say it's my own goddamn fault.
I'm not fun anymore.
I don't want to get shit faced drunk. I don't want to do drugs. I just want to enjoy company and not be judged and patronized for my anxieties and my beliefs.
I wish Disneyland were anywhere but California. Because I need to leave this place.
No one wants me. And I don't want to be here.
I don't know how much longer this is going to go on for.
But boy this is awful. I'll tell you.
Or just liked me.
Because I'm annoying.
I'm paranoid. And boring. And afraid. And jittery.
And I keep becoming more and more alone.
And I don't know what to do.
I'll more than likely start taking the accutane very soon.
And someone said I should have people around that know how I act so as to point out any change in my behavior that might be worrying.
But I don't know anyone now.
It'll only be my mom.
I feel like I could die from this loneliness.
One could say it's my own goddamn fault.
I'm not fun anymore.
I don't want to get shit faced drunk. I don't want to do drugs. I just want to enjoy company and not be judged and patronized for my anxieties and my beliefs.
I wish Disneyland were anywhere but California. Because I need to leave this place.
No one wants me. And I don't want to be here.
I don't know how much longer this is going to go on for.
But boy this is awful. I'll tell you.