Foul mood
I am in a foul mood today and have been for 24 hours, I am going to Cornwall to visit my ex fience/ good friend for his 30th and since booking the ticket down there he has started get5ting all soppy and I miss you I love you I should never have dumped you and got engaged to some one else ect ect
Now we have managed to stay friends because I am a forgiving soul and tend to pretend that all the nastyness did not happen and that he did not write pervey emails to my best mate saying in graphic detail what he would like to do to her and that he did not tell me that all his work mates fancy him. I have to be honest we also had some amazing times and have an almost telepathic conection and some of the best fun ever.
However now I have moved on and love my life in LOndon not to menchion my boyfriend her and all my new friends I am finding it very hard to not hurt him and yet to tell him that I am going back "home" as I now feel this is my home and I have no desire, even if I where to still love him, to down grade my life, my job and to move into a wendy house at the bottem of his parents garden where we will spend the rest of our lives being able to afford nothing while he pays off huge debts (nearly all of which went on the car).
I basicaly am ranting with no real point other than any advice on how I can stay friends yet stop him declaring his undying love to me would be grand!
I feel better after that actually
Rant over X
Now we have managed to stay friends because I am a forgiving soul and tend to pretend that all the nastyness did not happen and that he did not write pervey emails to my best mate saying in graphic detail what he would like to do to her and that he did not tell me that all his work mates fancy him. I have to be honest we also had some amazing times and have an almost telepathic conection and some of the best fun ever.
However now I have moved on and love my life in LOndon not to menchion my boyfriend her and all my new friends I am finding it very hard to not hurt him and yet to tell him that I am going back "home" as I now feel this is my home and I have no desire, even if I where to still love him, to down grade my life, my job and to move into a wendy house at the bottem of his parents garden where we will spend the rest of our lives being able to afford nothing while he pays off huge debts (nearly all of which went on the car).
I basicaly am ranting with no real point other than any advice on how I can stay friends yet stop him declaring his undying love to me would be grand!
I feel better after that actually
Rant over X