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i just need to write
man, last nite was crazy
i met up with some good ol' friends from back in the day. man i havent had that much fun just sittin and talkin in so long. thinkin about the past and the crazy shit weve all done. fuck man, i miss all my friends that i used to have. i used to see everyone everyday in school, and i fuckin hated it. now i dont see my friends often enough. it really does make me sad to think of everyone and the way things used to be. the people that ill never see again, how everyone was so innocent. and shit, it seems like just the other day i was sittin in the library at hamilton elementary on my first day of school, how i got lost and the two kids that talked to me right away. its a shame to see what the human race has become. its sad to know what we are capable of, but we are all so ignorant to it. we could all be such good people, but for some reason its harder to say 'hi' or 'morning' that it is to say nothing. its really unfortunate for people to be like that. which is why im glad to know the poeple i know, and it makes me wish that i could have been a more outgoing person rather than such a loner. but wwhenever i do thta i discover how fucked up people are and i remember why i dont want anything to do with them. even myself. i hate these contradictions in my thoughts, because on the outside, in this world it makes no sense. but inside, in my mind, it makes perfect sense. there are just no words anywhere to describe it.
People.
they never cease to amaze me. but then i think about it and its understandable. humans just do what they want. simple as that. you, me, or anyone else as human beings will always do what we want to do. we have the power to kill with the push of a button or pull of a trigger. we even have the thought capabilities to take our own lives. and thats what we waste these cababilites on. wanting. and any action taken is lazy at best. i really dont wanna bring another person into this world. i would never want to lay the cruel fate of being in this fucked up world on anyone, let alone a child of my own. i would never want him to know what i know, nor would i want him to live life in ignorance like everyone else.
i dunno, bro. i think too much, and about fucked up shit. but i know im right in some twisted way. i doubt if anyone understands this mumbo jumbo.
but back to why i came to write
last night i went to chads house on a whim and bobby was there. it was good to see my friend bobby again, its been such a long time. we went to steve's house in town right on 9th st. which i thought was the shit. we consumed several beer and blunts and just talked. but man, it was fun talkin to pepople i knew, about stuff i knew about. i havent had fun chillan like that in a fuckin long ass time, and it felt good. just the rain made the atmosphere right. it was as if the rain and meetin up with old friends were both long overdue and they just came together. i like the rain. not for skating, but, i love the dreary scenes, and the sound of water everywhere, the way lights reflect of the wet pavement. i like water.
but last nite made me remember that there are still a few good people around.
I remember.
man, last nite was crazy
i met up with some good ol' friends from back in the day. man i havent had that much fun just sittin and talkin in so long. thinkin about the past and the crazy shit weve all done. fuck man, i miss all my friends that i used to have. i used to see everyone everyday in school, and i fuckin hated it. now i dont see my friends often enough. it really does make me sad to think of everyone and the way things used to be. the people that ill never see again, how everyone was so innocent. and shit, it seems like just the other day i was sittin in the library at hamilton elementary on my first day of school, how i got lost and the two kids that talked to me right away. its a shame to see what the human race has become. its sad to know what we are capable of, but we are all so ignorant to it. we could all be such good people, but for some reason its harder to say 'hi' or 'morning' that it is to say nothing. its really unfortunate for people to be like that. which is why im glad to know the poeple i know, and it makes me wish that i could have been a more outgoing person rather than such a loner. but wwhenever i do thta i discover how fucked up people are and i remember why i dont want anything to do with them. even myself. i hate these contradictions in my thoughts, because on the outside, in this world it makes no sense. but inside, in my mind, it makes perfect sense. there are just no words anywhere to describe it.
People.
they never cease to amaze me. but then i think about it and its understandable. humans just do what they want. simple as that. you, me, or anyone else as human beings will always do what we want to do. we have the power to kill with the push of a button or pull of a trigger. we even have the thought capabilities to take our own lives. and thats what we waste these cababilites on. wanting. and any action taken is lazy at best. i really dont wanna bring another person into this world. i would never want to lay the cruel fate of being in this fucked up world on anyone, let alone a child of my own. i would never want him to know what i know, nor would i want him to live life in ignorance like everyone else.
i dunno, bro. i think too much, and about fucked up shit. but i know im right in some twisted way. i doubt if anyone understands this mumbo jumbo.
but back to why i came to write
last night i went to chads house on a whim and bobby was there. it was good to see my friend bobby again, its been such a long time. we went to steve's house in town right on 9th st. which i thought was the shit. we consumed several beer and blunts and just talked. but man, it was fun talkin to pepople i knew, about stuff i knew about. i havent had fun chillan like that in a fuckin long ass time, and it felt good. just the rain made the atmosphere right. it was as if the rain and meetin up with old friends were both long overdue and they just came together. i like the rain. not for skating, but, i love the dreary scenes, and the sound of water everywhere, the way lights reflect of the wet pavement. i like water.
but last nite made me remember that there are still a few good people around.
I remember.