i hate ya....dont look so suprised

[blood_of_wine]

my friend on yahoo(who kicks major anus by the way) says i post to much on the about my life journal, so she said i should use this one to kinda "even it out", blah blah blah. well whats new....hmm....got a new cd player for christmas, along with a shit load of gift certificts or however you call them thingys. i have to get tina a christmas gift/apology thing, since i headbutted her at the lord of the rings movie, i think ill get flowers cause she said she didnt want a min goat head. sent a poem to the school poetry board, they love it, david loves it(heh, funny guy that one) so i suppose ill post it on here, its about when i was on meds, they want me back on the fuckers so here it is, enjoy america:

break....

break these chains, these emotional ties
and inside you will see where my heart lies
break these ties made of steel
and you will find out what i really feal

broken behind fake smiles
always a step closer to wanting to die
what i feel isnt found inside a bottle of a vile
only time i feel is when i cry

i cant stand what you do to me
you thief, you take what i feel inside
this wasnt supposed to be
i try in vein to brake the bind

not your muppet anymore
i pick the gun from off the floor
break these chains from where i lie
for they will not leave me untill i die

break these chains, these emotinoal ties
and inside you will find where my heart dies
break these ties from names i cant spell
where darkness is the only place i can dwell

before i hit the floor
i slowly grin, this is real
not a slave to white suits anymore
i can feel for the first time

i can feel....