sometimes I wish I could be strong like you...

[blood_is_pourin]

"So I fall face down in a rut I can't seem to get out of
Please wake me, please give me some of it back, the feelings that I had

Sometimes I wish I could be strong like you
It doesn't matter
Each time I wake I'm somehow feeling the truth
I can't handle "

Lets get this party started - KORN

I haven't listened to korn in a very very long time... guess I haven't needed to.
I had a mental break down on wednesday, I skipped work and wasn't going to go back. I'd had enough.
My friends were so concerned the police came round. I don't know why I lied and told the police I was ok, maybe I should have reached out for help... there is a sense of helplessness in my world right now. You know how I get.

Like it has taken a direction that I never wanted. I didn't ask for this life. I thought I was special and I would have so much more... I guess that's what you get for being lazy.
I guess it's never too late to change anything. Change is what makes me sane. The mundane life I lead is such a bore. I resort to fantasy worlds... so much better than my own.

I guess I need to sort my head out...