Fresh Start Not So Fresh
I always put myself in bad positions. i Swear no matter what i do its always a lose, lose situation. Michael and I cant stop fighting, and on top of everything like me working at 4 am in the morning, everytime i sleep i dream that he cheated on me, when i know he hasnt. I know its alot of stress just up and moving from everything i know. But damn i wish something was easy. I just keep praying that something will make me happy. I mean its hard when the one person i up and left everything for just thinks everything i like is childish. It really gets to me. i really wish i could smoke a bowl and just clam down. I hate being broke and knowing no one. I really am trying, i think. i've almost been here for 3 weeks now, and michael and ive have faught almost the whole time. he broke the i trip so i cant listen to any of my music. I cant take walks and get away cause there crazy mexicans. I really miss home, im tryin to inorge it really hard. I mean everytime he upsets me he like you an just go home. errrr. Its like i just got down here and you want to send me away. it just doesnt make sense to me. My mom said mikes probably having a hard time cause he hasnt had a job in a long time. he says its cause of my childish attitude. well wtf if you wake me up and grab my side you know im gunna be pissed it sjust doesnt mke sense to me. I mean i know everything should work out i jut have to give it time. nothing easy when you just start something knew. well thanks for being here.