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well this is pretty much for myself...
im mad..im sad...im nervous..im pissed off..im scared..
im feeling a mix of emotions and idk what to think or do. i had a good time talkin to kyle alll last night, he knows everything about me nd is still there anytime. or anywhere i need him. nd i love him for that.
this past weekend is way to much for any of us to cope with. the loss of two amazing girls. whether they were bestfriends..sisters..classmate..or someone you barely knew..it has affected us all greatly. things wont be the same. ever.
i wish i would have been able to talk to her before saturday about everything, i feel guilty and mad at myself for not apologizing nd ending on bad terms.
i cant help but to think of..whats next.. or is this the end to this chain of deaths recently. after having 5 people i care about die within less than 2 months.i worry..im scared of losing another person i care about or even caring about someone, cause who knows. they may be gone sooner than you think. i find myself wondering "whose next?" and tryin to prepare myself for that.
this is enough for the moment.
RIP:Dale,Kurt,Gerald,Chelsea,Morgan.
im mad..im sad...im nervous..im pissed off..im scared..
im feeling a mix of emotions and idk what to think or do. i had a good time talkin to kyle alll last night, he knows everything about me nd is still there anytime. or anywhere i need him. nd i love him for that.
this past weekend is way to much for any of us to cope with. the loss of two amazing girls. whether they were bestfriends..sisters..classmate..or someone you barely knew..it has affected us all greatly. things wont be the same. ever.
i wish i would have been able to talk to her before saturday about everything, i feel guilty and mad at myself for not apologizing nd ending on bad terms.
i cant help but to think of..whats next.. or is this the end to this chain of deaths recently. after having 5 people i care about die within less than 2 months.i worry..im scared of losing another person i care about or even caring about someone, cause who knows. they may be gone sooner than you think. i find myself wondering "whose next?" and tryin to prepare myself for that.
this is enough for the moment.
RIP:Dale,Kurt,Gerald,Chelsea,Morgan.