un mothers day
so.. mothers day. didn't even see my mom. at all. it makes me sad because i saw all you guys with your moms and going out and everything. and its like... i cant even begin to explain that feeling. its like being torn apart inside. i miss her so much. my parents are always like "well cassie, you come from a broken home..." don't tell me that. i dont want to hear that. no. shit. i have a mom. i have a dad, but i will never have them at the same time.
so cool how my arm where i "gave blood" is bruised through to the other side. i dont know how the hell thats possible, but its there.
i miss having a close network of friends. i miss that feeling of security. and i kind of got screwed over by moving here to bothell in the 8th grade. because all of you grew up with eachother... and have known each other for so long, that its like... i am not a part of that. and when i am, it doesn't last long. everythings incomplete. somethings always missing.
i feel so alone right now. i haven't been home in 3 weeks. close to a month. and want to know something? i dont know if they even miss me. like it matters. it really doesn't i guess.
i dont want to say goodbye.
i miss you.
if you find a good friend, whos there for you, don't let them go. i can't trust anybody anymore it feels like.
the only person i have is... me