its one or another..between a rope and a bottle

[blondredhed]

sometimes i wonder...
is this really my life?
or just some fucked up dream i never woke up from...

i feel like shit.
ive already slept all day and it isnt an option anymore.
my dad called me a bitch.
i threw that fucking lunchpale so hard it broke.
i took a shower and cried a lot.
i havnt eaten today.
i dont want to eat.
i feel like i still have a fever.
i want to get out of this fucking house.
i want to slam my head into something so hard
i forget what its like to feel.

fuck this.