im speechless now
anonymous
July 22 2006, 09:36:38 UTC
Katie, It hurt me to, I longed for that familiar face, your embrace, but was it the same.... Im so confused right now, im trying to do whats best for you but can you find it? If I had it my way Id be with you, but its not all that easy I guess... you have to find what makes you happy, what you want at this point. I dont know what the right decision is anymore. Ive felt this emptiness inside since that last conversation we had on Tuesday night, emotionally and physically, I could actually feel it hurting from the outside as well as in, and as I sat there in the dark til morning I wondered how I will manage things now, I didnt want to go to my room that night to face the familiar... and Ive missed you so much. Then I hugged you today and felt like I had seen you but not filled that emptiness, I felt my heart after I left and it wasnt beating (you can seriously ask Sarah or Michael) ... I could not feel it beating, it was like the exact opposite of when you first held my hand... the first night. Now I come to find that you miss me and im stuck in dissaray, I dont know what to do, all ive wanted is for you to choose because i want what will work for you, what will make you happy, I dont want to be another bad story, I dont want you to shed tear for me. Talking to you tonight has certainly made me feel better, I feel like I havent lost you completely, but i cant be sure just what exactly youre trying to make out to me... Thank you, i fall away and i fall right back in, into confusian, but if i could id do it all over again...
talk to me sometime tomorrow please much love -Mike
It hurt me to, I longed for that familiar face, your embrace, but was it the same....
Im so confused right now, im trying to do whats best for you but can you find it? If I had it my way Id be with you, but its not all that easy I guess... you have to find what makes you happy, what you want at this point. I dont know what the right decision is anymore. Ive felt this emptiness inside since that last conversation we had on Tuesday night, emotionally and physically, I could actually feel it hurting from the outside as well as in, and as I sat there in the dark til morning I wondered how I will manage things now, I didnt want to go to my room that night to face the familiar... and Ive missed you so much. Then I hugged you today and felt like I had seen you but not filled that emptiness, I felt my heart after I left and it wasnt beating (you can seriously ask Sarah or Michael) ... I could not feel it beating, it was like the exact opposite of when you first held my hand... the first night. Now I come to find that you miss me and im stuck in dissaray, I dont know what to do, all ive wanted is for you to choose because i want what will work for you, what will make you happy, I dont want to be another bad story, I dont want you to shed tear for me.
Talking to you tonight has certainly made me feel better, I feel like I havent lost you completely, but i cant be sure just what exactly youre trying to make out to me...
Thank you, i fall away and i fall right back in, into confusian, but if i could id do it all over again...
talk to me sometime tomorrow please
much love
-Mike
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