Reflecting Pond.
I am currently posting from my bedroom, because i just got internet in it, and a new computer too. im super excited, and maybe this means i'll update more.
im half loving the neew tri, and half hating it. i miss a lot of my friends who i dont have classes with, or even see in the halls, and some of my teachers arent the best, but i do get to be with some people im not normally with, and make some new friends with. so i guess im indifferent, plus its not like theres anything i can do, so why complain.
Life has recently got me thinking alot about my past. and also about my views on things and how those will affect my future. I think im becoming more of a person, but losing myself...if that makes any sense? I finally cried for the first time in a decently long while last wednesday, but i dont think it helped, i think it made it worse. I went to church again for the first time in a month and a half, and we were talking about this. In order to get to the top of Gods mountain, you first must go through the valley beside it. i know thats nothing we havent heard, it just got reintroduced into my thoughts when i heard it. I guess i just wanna kindof go with life and see where it takes me, and have no regrets...but i know if i did that i would have tons of regrets. o well, this is just part of the teenage years, realizing who we are, and then doing something about it.
Ive probably talked to alot of you about my friend steve. he had three best friends last year, i was one of them, and there was also a girl named kristina. Sadly she died in a car crash over the summer, and i was there for him after it happenned and such, and he went through a rough faze with god, he hated god, and then moved on to not even believing in god for a while. And then last night we were talking about kristina at church, and he was saying how that had turned him athiest for a while, but then he realized that god forgives him when he does things that are seen as mistakes, so he would forgive god for this, what he considered it to be, mistake. And then he said, even god makes mistakes, hell thats why we have the platapus. I mean you cant try to tell me he did that on purpose. we got kindof less serious towards the end, but i really started thinking about faith. I believed in god in my childhood, but now i am less certain about where i stand, and what i believe. if he can lose his bestfriend, be mad for a while, but still come back and believe in the end. wow. thats faith. i dunno, just some thoughts.
<3 katrina
im half loving the neew tri, and half hating it. i miss a lot of my friends who i dont have classes with, or even see in the halls, and some of my teachers arent the best, but i do get to be with some people im not normally with, and make some new friends with. so i guess im indifferent, plus its not like theres anything i can do, so why complain.
Life has recently got me thinking alot about my past. and also about my views on things and how those will affect my future. I think im becoming more of a person, but losing myself...if that makes any sense? I finally cried for the first time in a decently long while last wednesday, but i dont think it helped, i think it made it worse. I went to church again for the first time in a month and a half, and we were talking about this. In order to get to the top of Gods mountain, you first must go through the valley beside it. i know thats nothing we havent heard, it just got reintroduced into my thoughts when i heard it. I guess i just wanna kindof go with life and see where it takes me, and have no regrets...but i know if i did that i would have tons of regrets. o well, this is just part of the teenage years, realizing who we are, and then doing something about it.
Ive probably talked to alot of you about my friend steve. he had three best friends last year, i was one of them, and there was also a girl named kristina. Sadly she died in a car crash over the summer, and i was there for him after it happenned and such, and he went through a rough faze with god, he hated god, and then moved on to not even believing in god for a while. And then last night we were talking about kristina at church, and he was saying how that had turned him athiest for a while, but then he realized that god forgives him when he does things that are seen as mistakes, so he would forgive god for this, what he considered it to be, mistake. And then he said, even god makes mistakes, hell thats why we have the platapus. I mean you cant try to tell me he did that on purpose. we got kindof less serious towards the end, but i really started thinking about faith. I believed in god in my childhood, but now i am less certain about where i stand, and what i believe. if he can lose his bestfriend, be mad for a while, but still come back and believe in the end. wow. thats faith. i dunno, just some thoughts.
<3 katrina