ApArT
I'm sitting in my cold dark room
with roses around and candles lit
a knife in one hand a letter in the next
with the final words i say
you ask me why i did this
why i cut my life away
i answer in this letter
nothing more to say
the blood is running down my wrist
waiting to be scabbed and scared
i write you one last letter telling you my fear
fears of loosing you and getting put aside
the things i say to you that i never thought i would
telling you i lost my head tell you we're through
i didn't take my life to hurt you
you just wouldn't understand
all my tears running down my cheek
all the scars gone wrong
the pain i feel is truly real
i know i am still here
wanting to be gone for good
leaving something with every cut
to you i leave you all my words
the letter and my pain
my pain i gave to you the day
i took my life and ran away
ran away to another place
filled with people just like me
the people in the padded wall
with no where to escape
i died for you my dearest love
not to prove you wrong
but to show you i care to much
and that it just wasn't enough
my eyes are closing
my heart is slowing down
you run into my room and sweep me up
rush me to the hospital but it is just to late
the words you asked my mother was "why"
"why my little angel, why my dearest love"
i answered you in my last breaths
with the tears running down my cheek
"you wouldn't understand my love,
my pain is just to deep,
i still love you with all my heart
just keep me and all our memories inside
the way i thought you would"
my last few words were simple they ended with a cry
"I love you Justin, I really do"
as I looked into his eyes for my last moments
he whispered in my ear
"you wont be alone for long...
just give me seven days, Ill be with you soon
April.... I love you too"
the tears ran down our cheeks
one final kiss and away i went
i grew my wings and flew
wishing i had stayed
he opened up my letter
and began to cry much more
the letter saying everything
i had gone through moments before
the last words in my letter
got him to his knees
to do what i had asked
"kiss me one last time... for i am truly sorry
and was completely wrong"
with roses around and candles lit
a knife in one hand a letter in the next
with the final words i say
you ask me why i did this
why i cut my life away
i answer in this letter
nothing more to say
the blood is running down my wrist
waiting to be scabbed and scared
i write you one last letter telling you my fear
fears of loosing you and getting put aside
the things i say to you that i never thought i would
telling you i lost my head tell you we're through
i didn't take my life to hurt you
you just wouldn't understand
all my tears running down my cheek
all the scars gone wrong
the pain i feel is truly real
i know i am still here
wanting to be gone for good
leaving something with every cut
to you i leave you all my words
the letter and my pain
my pain i gave to you the day
i took my life and ran away
ran away to another place
filled with people just like me
the people in the padded wall
with no where to escape
i died for you my dearest love
not to prove you wrong
but to show you i care to much
and that it just wasn't enough
my eyes are closing
my heart is slowing down
you run into my room and sweep me up
rush me to the hospital but it is just to late
the words you asked my mother was "why"
"why my little angel, why my dearest love"
i answered you in my last breaths
with the tears running down my cheek
"you wouldn't understand my love,
my pain is just to deep,
i still love you with all my heart
just keep me and all our memories inside
the way i thought you would"
my last few words were simple they ended with a cry
"I love you Justin, I really do"
as I looked into his eyes for my last moments
he whispered in my ear
"you wont be alone for long...
just give me seven days, Ill be with you soon
April.... I love you too"
the tears ran down our cheeks
one final kiss and away i went
i grew my wings and flew
wishing i had stayed
he opened up my letter
and began to cry much more
the letter saying everything
i had gone through moments before
the last words in my letter
got him to his knees
to do what i had asked
"kiss me one last time... for i am truly sorry
and was completely wrong"