Dont ever leave me
I just watched the little princess. good movie. Ive been feeling extrememly confused lately. I seem to be unable of making decisions, of doing anything. I think I have ADD. I actually think I really really really like someone, but I'm confused, because I don't think he actually likes me as anything more than a friend, and it hurts. I feel as if I have depression, or something similar. I feel like I'm pummeling down a never ending hole, I don't know which was is up anymore. Some of my friends are starting to realize my lack of attention. They can't understand why I stare into space, if only they knew I was just looking for a way out. I want to be happy, but I'm afraid to be happy. I don't know what will happen. Everytime I've been truly happy... truly in love ... something horrible has happened, and I don't want that to happen here. My feelings are confused, there are two people right now that I truly care for, yet I can't decide which one will actually be there for me. I just don't know what to do anymore. I've been having lingering thoughts about how quickly I've forgotten about david, whether it is a good thing or bad. Maybe I should give up on this love thing, but I don't want to, I just have to keep wishing that he'll realize that I really like him, and that the only reasons why I don't love him, are because I'm too afraid to let myself fall. Maybe I'm stupid to believe that there is someone out there exactly right for me, and maybe I'm stupid for wanting to find him now, but I just have this feeling, that I'm meant to know him now, that we're meant to meet and fall and to be together or something, I mean ionno... I don't want to get burnt again, but I don't want to miss an oppurtunity to find true love... not the fake I-really-love-you-atleast-until-someone-better-comes-along kinda love.. the real kind
just ignore me, Im stupid
just ignore me, Im stupid