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so where to begin.
well im in my first apartment! im so excited. its awesome. well not really, the apartment was NEVER cleaned since like forever and there were cockroaches as soon as we walked in the door, steve killed three of them. eww. then there were dead flies all over his room, pee on my bed, and blood on his. GROSS factor majorly. so yeah. i think steve and i broke up tnite for like the billionth time. although, im afraid its for the last time. but, oh well.
i feel like im in competition over his ex's. its retarded. like, he'll say, well andrea always did this. or we always did this (referring to his exfiance, kristen?spelling on that one.). so i got the spare keys out of my car to his car and got my vodka hes been hiding from me for months and opened it and drank some. then called a friend, went over there bc i havent seen them in AGES, at least since school ended. and hung out with them till about three ish. then chris called me to make sure i was okay, what a nice guy, and we talked for awhile. he wants me to move to texas with him. ha. thats funny. where the hell would i stay? he says his place. yeah, right. like this time its only been four days living with steve in my own place and already shit has hit the fan. great. you know? i dont know, guys can be decieving little monkeys.
i know i love steve and everything, but...im afraid. i need to not be. and i wish that i didnt have to be. i want steve's arms around me right now, even though i broke up with him. grr. this sux. im going to see if he'll answer his door ot let me lay with him for a lil bit.
well im in my first apartment! im so excited. its awesome. well not really, the apartment was NEVER cleaned since like forever and there were cockroaches as soon as we walked in the door, steve killed three of them. eww. then there were dead flies all over his room, pee on my bed, and blood on his. GROSS factor majorly. so yeah. i think steve and i broke up tnite for like the billionth time. although, im afraid its for the last time. but, oh well.
i feel like im in competition over his ex's. its retarded. like, he'll say, well andrea always did this. or we always did this (referring to his exfiance, kristen?spelling on that one.). so i got the spare keys out of my car to his car and got my vodka hes been hiding from me for months and opened it and drank some. then called a friend, went over there bc i havent seen them in AGES, at least since school ended. and hung out with them till about three ish. then chris called me to make sure i was okay, what a nice guy, and we talked for awhile. he wants me to move to texas with him. ha. thats funny. where the hell would i stay? he says his place. yeah, right. like this time its only been four days living with steve in my own place and already shit has hit the fan. great. you know? i dont know, guys can be decieving little monkeys.
i know i love steve and everything, but...im afraid. i need to not be. and i wish that i didnt have to be. i want steve's arms around me right now, even though i broke up with him. grr. this sux. im going to see if he'll answer his door ot let me lay with him for a lil bit.