*i tried to be perfect it just wasnt worth it nothing could ever be so wrong*
Well Hello.
Spring Break 2005 is officially over.
It makes me sad cause I had an...well...insightful break.
I'm Not gonna go on and on with details, their no fun. I did meet new people, catch up with old friends, learned that certain people in your life seem like petty friends until their gone for a whole week and you miss them so much and when you reunite you realize that their truely your best friends in the whole wide world, I learned that people who love you and you abandon but come back in contact with them to tell them the biggest secret of your life really are great people and you shouldnt ever let them go and you should work things out and try and be the bestest friends ever again, I learned that certain best friends care so much that they dont want to hurt you but by not telling you the full truth they hurt you 2ce as much as they would of before and it hurts your trust in them that you dont know if you should ever believe them again, and I learned that other friends no matter how much they say they care...just dont, and i learned you cant save people...they have to save themselves...you can be their inspiration...but nothing more...and when those people who you want to be their inspiration for say hurtful things or are unfaithful...its because their scared...cause they realize that being with you could be the best thing that ever happened to them...and being with you means they have to admitt their weak and want your inspiration...and some people are just too stubborn to admitt it.
Life can be confusing, and scary. Often I feel misguided, lost and used. But all im looking for is for someone to show me independence and fun. But I realized that I have to do that for myself. I have to save myself before I can be an inspiration for others.
So I saved myself over Spring Break. Now I'm moving on to be an inspiration for others.
But I still feel alone.
Peace Easy
I tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it I don't believe it makes me real I thought it'd be easy, but no one believes me I meant all the things I said. If you believe it's in my soul I'd say all the words that I know Just to see if it would show That I'm trying to let you know That I'm better off on my own. This place is so empty My thoughts are so tempting I don't know how it got so bad Sometimes it's so crazy That nothing can save me, But it's the only thing that I have. If you believe it's in my soul I'd say all the words that I know Just to see if it would show That I'm trying to let you know That I'm better off on my own. On my own. Ahh! I tried to be perfect it just wasn't worth it Nothing could ever be so wrong It's hard to believe me It never gets easy I guess I knew that all along. If you believe it's in my soul I'd say all the words that I know Just to see if it would show That I'm trying to let you know That I'm better off on my own.