What is this thing called love?
I know that this might be a personal enrty but i want the whole world to feel the way i'm feeling right now. This is just some things i believe in and some things i'm confused about. Yet once again i have experience one of the worst feelings in the world, a broken heart. As so many people have once told me love can make you do stupid things, which is very true. but a broken heart can make you do ever stupider things. A broken heart is never fun, never easy, and can make a mentaly stable person go crazy. As many of you already know i have recently been thru the worst heartach i have ever experianced, and i have had a lot. Every time i get hurt i tend to tell myself never agian. so, for me to have fun, but not get hurt, i date a bunch and just play mind games. that way i don't get realed in to there game of love. if your the player, you can't get played right? WRONG! For a boy that was supose to be a toy, a simple, fun little game, turned into the worst thing i've ever done. He tried and tried to get me but i wouldn't do it....but then one day i budged. Some how he convienced me that he was the Worlds Greatest Guy. I fell in love. like i said i have experienced heart break before so therefore i've experienced love. but not the love i had for him. i had so much love for him it scared me because i couldnt control myself. where did my guard go? it was gone. Then in the middle of all my happieness, i opend my eyes one day to find out i wasn't convienced, i was blind. Blinded by the rose tinted glasses called love. when ever you look thru them everything looks so pretty, but when you take them off and see the TRUE colors of people, there not so pretty, or happy. The boy i once considered the Worlds Greatest Guy quickly turned into the Worlds Biggest Jackass with just a blink of my eyes. I wasnt just left alone, but alone with things that belonged to him. The worst feeling in the world. After that i came to strongly belive that there is no such thing as love. after stories and stories i have heard of two people falling in love i figured it just wasn't for me. maybe because i wanted it so bad, maybe because i still have a lot to learn. But now i'm starting to think....is there, such thing as fate? if so, is love true? how can you not know a person one minute then a few hours go by and you feel like youve known him your whole life? is that fate? how a simple word that he says makes me feel so happy inside, is that fate? How he already wants to give me the world after one day of seeing each other, what is that, is that fate? He heard the most horrible things about me, yet he still asked me out. he still hugged me, touched me, kissed me. and made me feel all brand new. it's funny because i'm so scared, scared of such a wonderful feeling. but then again he's been thru the same things, therefore feels the same way. For two people that are so scared of each other, we can't seem so get enough of each other. Can this be true? Can this be real? am i awake this time? or am i still dreaming?