Again.....
so my parents are being horrible... I went to my therapy session and did everything they asked me to do yesterday... I got home late and had no time to do my homwork, or anything... so I wanted to go to school after seminary (id get there at like 6:20) and practice for my audition and do my homwork.... they said, no, I had to come home, and I could practice and do my homework at home...
I told them, that I was auditioning on a concert tuba, and not a suosaphone (what I have at home) and I had to learn it on that instrument... they still insist i come home...
so Im pissed and my stepdad drives me to seminary... and we are argue-ing about it ("it not my fault your so full of hatred and anger" "maybe if we could trust you we wouldnt have issues" "its not my fault you have to be in therapy" "your making your mom sick" "its your fault") ((but I have been good... they dont know the horrible things I do , AND im single... i havent been lying or anything!..... "ill be here to pick you up at 6:10"
so I walk in the door, my eyes are full of tears, I cant take it anymore... I start crying in the hallway.. I sat there for 20 mins... finally the teacher comes out and tells me to go to the bathroom and clean myself up... and I do...
Seminary is over and I ask my friend who takes me to school if my moms car is outside... she says yes so I ask her to pull around the back to come get me ((ill be damned if I go home)) as she does my parents car pulls around also, looking for me... so my friend is like shit nickel, shes coming... so I run inside and they leave me at the church... I hide out at the church in the bathroom... ((my mom walked around inside and couldnt find me and then dhe went to the school and looked for me... I wasnt there))
I hung out at the church with some friends who ditched the later seminary... and we talked about all the shit and whatnaught....so and hour later, I left and walked to school by myself... I never called my parents nothing...
I got some ((stuff)) and did ((it)) again... im sorry I really am trying... im weak... have a headache like a mother....
just had an hour long argument ((again))... I cant stand it anymore... cryed 2 times today.....