May 20, 2005 22:38
So today was the highly anticipated senior trip to Hersheypark. Got up at 5, was at the school by 6 and we were off by 6:30. I got on the bus with people I knew, but didn't feel comfortable sitting with anybody, so I say by myself. And then this guy comes and sits next to me, but not because he wants to, but because its the only empty seat in the area. And then this bitch in front of me puts her seat down all the way. The conversation ends with me calling her a slut and my knees in the back of her chair the entire ride up there.
It was cold and rainy when we got there and pretty much stayed that way til 2ish. Ended up having a much better time than I expected to, which I am thankful for. Walked around with marissa, shannon, and ashley. That group later merged into another large group. The group was a lot of people I knew from classes, but never had an actual conversation with outside of class. I had fun, goofed around, made jokes with everybody and it definitely made me spend the rest of the day thinking...
What would have happened had I not limited myself to one group of friends? It seems by only forging friendships with a certain group and forgoing all of the other people, I may have sold myself short. And that's not a slam against my current friends, I love them!! but what would high school have been like had I been more open to friendships with people outside my circle? Go figure, I think of this now in the last two weeks of high school and this will probably be the last time I speak or see half of these people again. At lunch Marissa, Joey, Jim, and I all discussed this... Jim brought up a good point, he's wondering who he talks to now, but who he'll simply fall out of touch with in the coming months... Ask your parents how many of them still keep in touch with friends from high school? The answers probably zero or a number close to that. It was really nice being able to be friendly to people outside of my group. Talking with Marissa was great, she and I are a lot alike, I'm glad we've started talking more this year. It was also nice talking to Kenny for the rest of the day. Funny, how asking him to sit next to me on a roller coaster leads to a day of conversation. I guess it was reaffirming my belief that I chose to limit my friends and that is completely my fault and that if I had been willing to engage in new friendships they would have happened.
I am oh so tired and I'm a little annoyed with a few minor things... So I'm gonna go try and do some of my endless amounts of homework.
Hope everybody had a great Friday and will have a great weekend!