i dont need you what was i thinking..?!
talking to you made me feel so much better. i dont need you.. what was i thinking?! i love you so much but you do everything against what i believe in. i might NEVER find someone who is my perfect guy but im hoping theres someone closer to that then you. who knows i could talk to them everyday and just not realize how good he really is. Ive always said "if i want a guy and his girlfriends not blonde ill take her away" but u know what.. your an exception. maybe what i thought was your perfect girl really isnt.. maybe when i thought i was perfect for you, im really not. maybe shes the perfect girl for you.. the way you tell me about her it sounds like she is. I now realize im nuts.. waiting for a guy that has a nutty girlfriend, does everything i hate with a passion, and could care less about how i feel. i dont need that. id rather be by myself. i dont need anyone. when i find that right person there going to stick out. And by the looks of it the only reason y u stick out is because i dont want to open up, i dont want to have to worry about what another person thinks of me, what their going to try to do. After being with you for 2 years i should trust you and not have to worry about what you think. youve seen me through the worst and the best part was you still loved me no matter what i looked like and no matter what i said to bring you down. If i have to go through all the main convos AGAIN just to find the right guy, i will.
You dont realize what you did to me. You made me ruin a friendship because i based my whole day around when you were going to call or when we were going to hang out. i would have done ANYTHING to make you happy. but you lost that all. I dont tell anyone my secrets because i think they are going to tell. so now i have to keep it all inside because your not there. thats alrite tho.. ill find some1 who i can tell everything to and who will actually get along with my friends so i wont have to pick 1 over the other.. how could i not see this in the first place?!!