I wish...
More than anything I wish I could totally control my emotions. I wish that when I told myself to feel something, I'd feel it. I wish that when I KNEW in my mind what was best for me, I'd know it in my heart, too. I wish I could forget what I want to forget.
I wish I was a better friend/family member. I feel like I've been shafting people/taking my friends and family for granted and I hate it. I love every single one of you and I wish I was better at showing it.
I wish I knew what repercussions my actions will have...
...or maybe I just wish I knew what other people were feeling.
I wish I wasn't so selfish and stupid and insecure...I thought I wasn't insecure, but we all are in some way.
I wish God wouldn't let us feel things we aren't supposed to feel.
I wish it was summer. I wish we were seniors. I wish the AP tests were over.
I wish track wasn't so stressful. I wish school wasn't so stressful. I wish I'd studied more for the AP English test. I wish I'd started studying for SATs. I wish I'd studied the FIRST time I took the SATs. I wish I'd started my Spanish project.
I wish I wasn't so condescending to my family.
I wish I would stop feeling so freakin sorry for myself when so many other people have so many problems that are so much more important than mine.
I wish I wouldn't write in lj so much. Then maybe I'd get stuff done.
Maybe I just get overly emotional during vacations. This happened last vacation too...but differenly. Whatever. It's fine. We have a month and a half left. A month and a half. That's it.
<3 Christie
I wish I was a better friend/family member. I feel like I've been shafting people/taking my friends and family for granted and I hate it. I love every single one of you and I wish I was better at showing it.
I wish I knew what repercussions my actions will have...
...or maybe I just wish I knew what other people were feeling.
I wish I wasn't so selfish and stupid and insecure...I thought I wasn't insecure, but we all are in some way.
I wish God wouldn't let us feel things we aren't supposed to feel.
I wish it was summer. I wish we were seniors. I wish the AP tests were over.
I wish track wasn't so stressful. I wish school wasn't so stressful. I wish I'd studied more for the AP English test. I wish I'd started studying for SATs. I wish I'd studied the FIRST time I took the SATs. I wish I'd started my Spanish project.
I wish I wasn't so condescending to my family.
I wish I would stop feeling so freakin sorry for myself when so many other people have so many problems that are so much more important than mine.
I wish I wouldn't write in lj so much. Then maybe I'd get stuff done.
Maybe I just get overly emotional during vacations. This happened last vacation too...but differenly. Whatever. It's fine. We have a month and a half left. A month and a half. That's it.
<3 Christie