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so basically i havent updated in forever and no one reads this so i can say whatever i want
ok so where to start ...
person 1: i feel like this certain someone doesnt care about anyone other then themselves and they have everyone but me and a few select individuals fooled. and it sucks because i care about them a lot actually and it hurts to see them do some of the things they do and say. i know that if i told them everything they have a right to know they would take it the wrong way and our friendship would crash and burn which isnt what i really want, at least not now. i dont know how to act around them or whether what comes out of there mouth is actually how they feel. i dont know what our friendship means to them and it makes me nervous.which leads me to
Person 2: i think deep down this individual is a sweet, kind, caring, good human being and that he just sometimes missues his relationships with girls. hes happy in a relationship which is great, i believe everyone deserves to be happy so thats not what bothers me. its how he comes off as this sweet charming human being and he says the right things at the right time and as soon as you start believing that hes genuine and honest you find out that hes not really looking to make someone else happy hes looking to find what will make him happy and get him some sexual activity to put it bluntly. i started to like this person even though hes going out with someone i didnt mean to start liking him but these things just kind of happen, i would never take him away from her or hurt her for that matter but i suppose i want to be happy is that so awful? is that so god damn selfish? maybe it is maybe it isnt, i dont really know the answer. but it hurts to know that he was and still is just using you its not fair because everything i said i meant. i dont want to be the girl on the side or the one who gets used , abused and tossed on the side because that person got what they wanted from the start. its not fair that he told me he doesnt want me to get hurt yet he already hurt one of my friends and he already hurt me. i dont know if i still like him or not its quite the confusing matter. hes still daitng someone and im just afraid that one day she gives him what he wants, what he talks about all the time, that hell drop her and move on to the next victim. well i guess we will just have to see what happens.
Person 3: what to say about her,shes one of my really good friends maybe even one of my best friends shes amazing ive gotten so much closer to her this year, shes quite the individual, shes so kind and caring, and sweet, and fun, and outgoing, shes a really good listener and shes full of advice, shes crazy and i love it, i feel like i can be myself around her and i dont have to be worried about what she thinks of me , last year i have to admit i was intimidated of her because of her social status and her beauty, but ive gotten to know her and i feel like i fit in finally and that i no longer have to be afraid of her which is a relief. i hope sometime ill be able to help her out just like shes helped me , i think shes a good friend and i love her, i have some great memories with her and i hope there are so many more to come, idk sometimes i dont think she likes me though dispite everything idk maybe its true maybe its not i cant really answer that. i hope not.
Person 4: i love her shes one of my best friends and i care about her a lot. but sometimes i get worried about what shell end up doing, everyone sees her as the cute friendly happy innoccent one but ive had talks with her that make me think otherwise. i just hope that she can put up with everything long enough. i have such a good time with her i hope our friendhsip doesnt change because this year ive started to hangout with more people which is fun but i miss not seeing her as often as i used too hopefully ill learn how to balence my time better to fit everyones needs it but its hard and its a skill i havent figured out yet. i just hope she still knows that im here for her no matter what happens.
she will always mean a lot to me.i want to be able to help her i just dont know how.
Person 5: another one of my best friends shes been through so much and shes a lot like me she tries to help everyone and make everyone else happy before making herself happy thats one of the things that we have in common and it tends to get us upset sometimes but i respect her for everything shes done and how many people she keeps alive i just hope one day i can manage to feel like ive helped her and other people just as much as i know she has. i hope she knows im here for her and that she knows that she cant change things that go on in my life whether or not they need to change its hard and i understand that i just have to suck it up and pretend that everythings okay sometimes im okay with that most of the time but i just dont want her getting upset over the things i cant change and she cant either.
ive run out of time , so maybe another day ill finish this entry
ok so where to start ...
person 1: i feel like this certain someone doesnt care about anyone other then themselves and they have everyone but me and a few select individuals fooled. and it sucks because i care about them a lot actually and it hurts to see them do some of the things they do and say. i know that if i told them everything they have a right to know they would take it the wrong way and our friendship would crash and burn which isnt what i really want, at least not now. i dont know how to act around them or whether what comes out of there mouth is actually how they feel. i dont know what our friendship means to them and it makes me nervous.which leads me to
Person 2: i think deep down this individual is a sweet, kind, caring, good human being and that he just sometimes missues his relationships with girls. hes happy in a relationship which is great, i believe everyone deserves to be happy so thats not what bothers me. its how he comes off as this sweet charming human being and he says the right things at the right time and as soon as you start believing that hes genuine and honest you find out that hes not really looking to make someone else happy hes looking to find what will make him happy and get him some sexual activity to put it bluntly. i started to like this person even though hes going out with someone i didnt mean to start liking him but these things just kind of happen, i would never take him away from her or hurt her for that matter but i suppose i want to be happy is that so awful? is that so god damn selfish? maybe it is maybe it isnt, i dont really know the answer. but it hurts to know that he was and still is just using you its not fair because everything i said i meant. i dont want to be the girl on the side or the one who gets used , abused and tossed on the side because that person got what they wanted from the start. its not fair that he told me he doesnt want me to get hurt yet he already hurt one of my friends and he already hurt me. i dont know if i still like him or not its quite the confusing matter. hes still daitng someone and im just afraid that one day she gives him what he wants, what he talks about all the time, that hell drop her and move on to the next victim. well i guess we will just have to see what happens.
Person 3: what to say about her,shes one of my really good friends maybe even one of my best friends shes amazing ive gotten so much closer to her this year, shes quite the individual, shes so kind and caring, and sweet, and fun, and outgoing, shes a really good listener and shes full of advice, shes crazy and i love it, i feel like i can be myself around her and i dont have to be worried about what she thinks of me , last year i have to admit i was intimidated of her because of her social status and her beauty, but ive gotten to know her and i feel like i fit in finally and that i no longer have to be afraid of her which is a relief. i hope sometime ill be able to help her out just like shes helped me , i think shes a good friend and i love her, i have some great memories with her and i hope there are so many more to come, idk sometimes i dont think she likes me though dispite everything idk maybe its true maybe its not i cant really answer that. i hope not.
Person 4: i love her shes one of my best friends and i care about her a lot. but sometimes i get worried about what shell end up doing, everyone sees her as the cute friendly happy innoccent one but ive had talks with her that make me think otherwise. i just hope that she can put up with everything long enough. i have such a good time with her i hope our friendhsip doesnt change because this year ive started to hangout with more people which is fun but i miss not seeing her as often as i used too hopefully ill learn how to balence my time better to fit everyones needs it but its hard and its a skill i havent figured out yet. i just hope she still knows that im here for her no matter what happens.
she will always mean a lot to me.i want to be able to help her i just dont know how.
Person 5: another one of my best friends shes been through so much and shes a lot like me she tries to help everyone and make everyone else happy before making herself happy thats one of the things that we have in common and it tends to get us upset sometimes but i respect her for everything shes done and how many people she keeps alive i just hope one day i can manage to feel like ive helped her and other people just as much as i know she has. i hope she knows im here for her and that she knows that she cant change things that go on in my life whether or not they need to change its hard and i understand that i just have to suck it up and pretend that everythings okay sometimes im okay with that most of the time but i just dont want her getting upset over the things i cant change and she cant either.
ive run out of time , so maybe another day ill finish this entry