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idk wht 2 say or how 2 explain mi feeling right now. um i guess i hate sharing mi crush i thnk its something u shldnt have 2 share and i know i dont have a chance with him but i dont wanna share i sound like im in preschool kindergarten i dont wanna share uh ne way i read his lj and i didnt like the comment there i wanna know who it was and i wanna starngle them im mean but i guess again i dont wanna share i wanna know who left the comment bcuz if i were 2 leave a truthful comment tht wld b it. i miss him and i want him and im angry tht i cant have wht i want its not fair but i guess lifes not fair i just wish when it came 2 this it wld. i hate emotions sometimes. hah wht i really wanna do right now is sit on the beach with him and having a heart to heart conversation and 2 b able then 2 tell him mi true feelings but thts just a dream. um i have a science project tht i have been working on its hard, annoying, and boring as hell. i cant wait 4 confirmation class 2 b over this monday yes! but i have a test tht decides if im in it next year or not which im ginna fail great. ne way sam had her bday party friday tht was awesome i had a damn good time. at first i felt out of place and lonely and i was really missing someone so i sat with nikki or went off on mi own but hey it all worked out. lmao tyler met emmes family and i met her sister yes he has eyes o0o there pretty brown hah i like her sister but she seems 2 b blonder than emme wow jk. good thing her dad wasnt there. emme and tyler looked really cute they went off on their own and sat on the treehouse thing and we holding hands oh it definately was a kidak moment. he was soo cute love em both. chris and leanne looked cute 2 holding hands and cuddling and then making out loudly in the corner lol sam will never think of the corner the same way lol sammy the birthday girl yay and ian looked real cute 2 their first kiss with eachother was cute thanks 2 our wonderful emme shoving their heads together lol aw sam was crying during the movie moulin rougue i guess its an emotional movie tht i decided i wasnt intrested in and i went and talked with her mom well cuz her mom needed 2 talk with me i guess after tht i was real emotional and i ended up having an emotional momnet with sam and emme i kinda needed 2 do tht. nikki and tom looked cute 2 their arms around eachother and nikki once again u will not crush him if u sit on him u just wont he weighs more than u so shut the fuck up and sit on him damnit hell live hey he might even like it u never know. so alex gave leanne a makeover and got glitter all over samms bed tht was funy and we blew it onto leannes head. she had lots of glitter on her it was funny u looked like tinkerbell. then the guys left at like 11 and u didnt stop hearing who missed who after tht. um alex,nikki,erin,and me were put into trances. tht was definately intresting. nikki well wow i felt so bad and wanted 2 cry when she said he wish and such, erins well we cleared up somethings and we now know u still like hom grr but its all good. and alex omg tht was scary shit leannes was crying aww and i cnt believe some of the shit said tht night wow. andree left early tht sucked and she wasnt feelin good poor thing hope she feels better. and then we talked a lil bit ate ramen and we watched white chicks tht was a funny movie lol and i went online and looked at some ljs and such and then i got tierd nikki went on and i fell asleep inbetween leanne and adam his friends and him were annoying as hell god damn them yes leanne hit him hah. then i suppossedly fell asleep on adam but i dont thnk i did and jesus christ its not a big deal i was asleep i didnt know. ne way i woke up and alex had left aww no goodbye and thanks 4 the plate i was not comfy with adam. the bagel was good then leanne, adam, and i went walking around and had some funn u did it right this time lol. tht was cool. and then we went back 2 sams house and went outside and said our goodbyes and hugged erin and leanne and then mi dad can shortly after. and i had a boring rest of the weekend except tennis was good. im tired now and i have 2 go get stuff 4 mi poster. comment if u want lyl