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First of all, what I am writing is about how I am feeling right now about certain people & certain things. If you feel that what I say is towards you, please ask before you jump to conclusions & make an ass outta your self for no reason!
Sitting on the 'patio' last night talkin to diffrent people about diffrent things, I've come to realize that most people feel the same way I do about so many things in life. If it's about 'you', her, him, life, school, work...whatever the case is. And if they dont feel the same way, they have made me realize why things happen the way they do. So what im trying to say about that is thank you! I have always been told 'People will walk in & out of your life everyday, but true friends will stay forever.' For the most part that is a true statement and I love it, but at the same time how come I have lost 'true' friends over the dumb~shit?!? But there are reason's that people from your past dont make it into your future too. So now what are you suppopsed to think? To me it seems that life is nothing but a mind game. You either go the right way all your life or you go throught all of it's twist & turns and just hope you make it out alive. I dont know anymore. I really dont...
You were someone that for the past 4 years was always by my side and knew everything about me & my life. Things got rocky at time and we worked it out. When I needed you to be there for me you always were, now when I needed you one last time your not there. Where are you? You wont answer, no return calls...nothing. So im giving up. Giving up on you, giving up on trying to be your friend & giving up hopes & dreams! I really feel that I have lost everything between us and that was never the intentions at all, and it hurts so bad. But then again, who's fault is it? I tried to be your friend...whats your excuse? I have loved you for over 3 years and I know that will never change! Deep down I know that I will never forget about you and that hurts me to say that b/c I know that you dont feel the same way. I know that I never mattered to you & that hurts even worse. You never forget your first true love. And yes, that was YOU! I dont know what else to say b/c I know that there will never be an us again, but the part where we both wanted to be friends...what happened to that? One thing that I have learned from you is that you should always be yourself and never let anyone get you down. For now, its working. Just do me a favor, treat your 'new' girl better then you treated me and maybe things will be better between the 2 of you then they were with us. Im glad your happy, if thats what you want to call it. Dont forget me please...Best of everything for you!
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You'll find better love
Strong as it ever was
Deep as the river runs
Warm as the morning sun
Please remember me
As for everything else, Thank you to the people that I see everyday that make my day that much better. I appreciate all the fun, laughs, talk, memories, pictures, drunken moments, heart-2-hearts, walks & just everything we do on a regular basis! I love you all & thanks for keeping me sane! Really!
To my girls...
- Melissa
- Sheryl
- Krisin (my lil sis)
- Nicole
- Alicia
- Kari
- Stacy
- Chelsey
- Kelly
To my guys...
- Adam
- Jayme
- Garrett
- Andy
- Andy
- Dan-O
- Nate
- Nick
- Jeff
- Jim
- Jimm
- Doug
- Bobby
Thank you again!
§hannon